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Kentots dedicate this to me(:


My dearest cousin noii.

Aku tau kiter due selalu macam paham aje kalau bebual pasal our love-life-stories. trying to motivate each other to move on, tapi in the end, we are actually not moving on. Kan? But everything's change now for ME noii.I AM REALLY MOVING ON .But you? I choose to move on because you know why? I hate the feeling of misery & guilty-ness everyday of my life, and the feeling of being worried why the other party seems so heartless that they dont even bother about our feelings and blablabla. The fact is, they dont care abt us, so why on earth must we be so bothered abt them? tell me.Maybe god answer my prayers. Yes god answer my prayers, to keep me strong when times are hard. And yes im managing it now. THANK YOU to my busy lifestyle now, that actually AKU NIE BOLEH DAPAT LUPER KAN THE PAST.Whatever that u've been facing now, right now, i've faced way much more earlier than you. I've cried at night alone. I cried when im all alone by myself, just like you. Its hard but, life has to go on. Words may sound cheap right? say it together with me.... LIFE GOES ON. But deep down, you know that its easy said than done. Right? Well yes ofcourse sweeitheart. Its never easy to move on and to heal all wounds. It takes time. And u need to be strong. Ok?Ipin is your past. Your future is waiting ahead of youuu. Come on! You need to be strong. I know u can do it. Time is all you need. call me ok if u need someone to talk to. I will be here noii (:LOVE YOU



Thanks my kentots.
your words made my day. although aku nangis, tapi i will move on okay? but still, i can't stop loving him and allow myself to be with other guys, cos i still kept MY promise & his promise too.
I can't forget the past. BUT. I'm trying to move on dear.
Give me time to heal this broken heart. I know he no longer bothers about me.
But I still do pray for him.
Somehow, I just wished that HE loves me too (':

I can't love other guys dear. I tried, but I failed. I know now, he has someone else.
I don't wanna ruin his happiness.
EVERY night dear, EVERY single night, I walk back home, CRYING and when I'm at home, I cried too.
Sometimes I just wished that I was not born with any feelings. Cos it is soooo hard to get over the love of your life.
I'm glad you are moving on.
I'm happy for you syg.

Give me time okay.
I just miss his laughter, his hugs & kisses & the scent that usually gives me the sense of security.

I'm not going to go after him anymore cos he's happier NOW.
Why GOD didn't make me feel the same way as he is?

I'm tired of living. YES.
Living without him, is like living without a soul.


If this is too much, I can no longer stand.
I wish I was not born even.

He told me, "think what's best for you"
& I answered in my heart, YOU ARE THE BEST FOR ME, ARIFIN.

If he's meant for me, he will come back.

Oh dear, I can't believe after Nizam, now HIM.

It hurts a lot to miss someone you really LOVE.

To Muzill.

I'm so sorrry. I can't have a new life with you when the fact is, I still LOVE HIM.
If we were meant to be together, we will eventually.
But for now, I'm just not ready to go a step further when my heart is still swollen.
I don't know what was right for me before, BUT i knew it now.

Find someone better okay? I'm not the best for you.

Whatever happens, we ARE still friends.

To "the one who live next door",

& nothing can stop me from loving HIM. I love HIM & yes I do(:



READERS,

I still LOVE him. Help me to forget HIM!
I can't do this any longer. I need you to tell me that he no longer cares about me & that I MUST move on.

Please?

:'(