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To all my loves. I'm so happy to know that at least, i have your strengths to move on.

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Nöii bäcens to muzill
i'm so sorry if what i said here, hurts you. But seriously, i can't hide my TRUE feelings. I still love Arifin but i don't need him to know that. Although i still LOVE him, i'm not hoping he will turn back to me. That's impossible. That is why, i don't want to start any relationship right now. Even with you. I'm so sorry muzill. Find someone else who is way better than me. I'm sure you will someday. :)

Nöii bäcens to zylaa beylos
Hello my CINTA! I'm okay dear. Okay. To be honest, i'm not okay. Know why? I'm sick of pretending. Pretending to be happy, laughing every moment just to COVER up that sadness and grieves. It hurts to be hurt. & i know. All of this mixed feelings i felt, won't last long. Every day i prayed hard that this sufferings i had will end soon. I'm trying to move on. With you, kentots & manes, insyaallah i will. :)

Nöii bäcens to adik ikä
Thanks adik! Kakak pun hope the same thing. I'm so sorry if i hurt your abang. Shall meet you and your cute adik soon dear!I love you :)

I sat alone in my bedroom. Thinking back of all the memories. The sweet memories i had with him & his family.Kakak. How i miss sharing stories with you. Sharing my problems with you. & i missed listening to your stories too. I once said in my previous blog, if i am no longer with your adik, it won't change anything between me & your family. But its easier said than done. Know why? Its so difficult kak. So difficult for me to face someone who once stepped into my life. This break up, is forever. Thats what i feel all this while. I guess so. :) i used to imagine, WE will live together in the future, under the same roof! Haha. So imaginative of me. I miss your mum's cooking. I miss eating the Asam Pedas your mum cooked! & i miss your dad, who is always teasing me. I never felt so much LOVE from a true family before. & that was what i felt when i'm with your family. I felt so different that i even dread going home. I MISS those loves i felt. Now, i felt so incomplete. Something's missing. :)I miss those sleepovers. :')I miss my KAKAK & my ciks!All i want is an explanation from HIM. :)