I woke up that morning, quickly rushed to the toilet and did my abolition. I dreamt about you. Of all people I could think of, I dreamt of you. Anws, school went pretty great as usual. Stayed for a while to do RJ in school and after that Me, Yan Nee, Rozzy, Ian, AfiQ, Vik, Azhar and later, Syiddiq went to Changi Hospital to pay a Abd a visit. I swear the journey was freaking long and I thank AfiQ for entertaining me. *smiles*

The sleepless nights and the tears I cried can never make up the love that was lost. I was pushing myself hard to forget about you totally. To think I’ve failed to be the one that stays in your heart, I should have never said that. I’m waiting for a miracle. I hope my sincerity will come to prove that initially, this heart’s meant for you. I know, I’m not there at your most needed and sickest time. I know you are hurt by the fact that I was being apathetic. I did that because I wanted so much to forget about you because I can see no end to our endless arguments and bickering. Furthermore, you initiate it yourself; you want me to be happy without you. Yes, I was happy. I’m very happy. But little that you know, I can act very well too. Well enough to show you how “HAPPY” I am without you. I am happy when there are friends, family and mum around me. But the moment they are out of my sight, the smile I had was replace by a frown instead.

I’m not asking for your sympathy or your attention but as you know, this is my blog where I talk about how I feel. I’ve got no more you to tell all my grievances and success. Sometimes I just wished that you were there to hug me, to tell me that no matter what happens, you will be there for me. I recalled back the past. I thought of how you ask me to be yours. I was moved and I still do, up till now. I missed those families bonding I had with your family, where everything seems perfect & beautiful. I want those days again. I know you won’t come back again. That was why I was trying hard to be happy and spend all the time I had with all my friends. I don’t want to be caught up with the past, with you. I’m still waiting for the keys to my heart to be unlocked and it seems that no one could ever find that key that you threw away the moment you step out of my life.