Msned with Kakak in class. Well, I do miss those times we used to spend together. Like you & I both said before, we will never ever bear grudges if anything bad happens between me and Ipin.
And so, we bitched of course. The conversation we had below was hilarious.

Kakak : Dahl ah Albania..gi blaja pandai2..slamat bejaye ye!
Me: Hahahah! Lols. Yee. Kirim salam si pompuan maknye tuh! Pape picit!
Kakak: Picit tetek eh?
Me: Haha. Boleh jugak! Rindu ah! Slalu Ipin yang picit!
Kakak: Ok lor. Rindu kepaaaa! nnti kakak bilang ipin..pegi jumpe albania,picit tetek die sekali tros balek ar...hahaha
Me : HAHAHAHA. Ok set! I’ll be waiting!
Kakak : Miss you adik, take care!

Vic’s in my team for Enterprise. We talked and crapped a lot.

Me : *singing* I’m so happy, I’m so glad.. That I am FATTTTT!
Vic : *singing* I KNOW THAT!
Fcuk lor him. KNNN CBBBB. HAHA. But still, it’s funny!

I told Vic about what Brad Lull said.
Me : Eh, you know what he said when he saw me and you everytime?
Vic: What?
Me : He said he was shocked!
Vic : Why?!
Me : He thought you’re my boyfriend.
Vic : Me?? NOOOO. Then why he shocked?!
Me : Cos he was shocked lah that I’ve changed my taste.
Vic : O_O
Then he told me this which I did some reflection after that.
Vic : When the guy is so better looking you will dump or leave that person and when the guy is so fucking ugly, you will love him like mad?!
Me : O_O

I was reading through my previous entries. It simply cracks me up to how childish I was back then. Well, now too. But reading through those entries, I find that somehow I was pretty much defensive when it comes to relationship. Seems like it. I missed being taken care of, loved and given the attention to. And now, things are very much different. I won’t ask for more and when I did, I tried not to take things for granted. I got so mad when things don’t go my way. I will somehow let myself have the feel of being hurt when the fact is, I didn’t know it will hurt eventually.

If you were to ask me to choose between an ex-convict and a degree holder guy for a boyfriend, I would choose an ex-convict instead. Only god knows the reason why. : )

Thursday : I did not attend school. I was lazy, tired and shag. However, I came school just to meet my trek friends. I heard the news about the incident in class. One thing for sure, ELENE ONG, you’re gonna lose your job soon. : )

Slacked for a while at civics mac. We were talking about dates.

Me: Walao, then no one want date me siaa. : (
Vik : Yeah right. You want me to list?
Me : No ah. Like cannot find someone right?
Khai : You ah Albania! Very choosy in choosing guy!
Me : Like DUHHHH!
Khai : So tell me what type of guy you want?
Me : Firstly, I want that guy to smell nice!
Khai & Cloud : ABD smells nice whatttt!
Me : He’s not my type. You wait, I haven’t finish.
Khai : Ok, ok, then?
Me : Secondly, he must be thin. Actually, not thin also can.
Khai : Then?
Me : AHHHHH! He must also be someone who care but don’t care and COOL but not a fool!
Khai, Cloud, Vik, AfiQ : O_O
Hahahaha! Don’t worry, only Manda baby understands! So bastards, GO FIGURE!
You think I’ve found him? *winks*

Trek training, we washed all our equipments and had a lot of fun playing and splashing water. I felt so happy just now. I don’t know why but, I do. I swear I was darn super noisy just now. Hah, to hell to those who thinks that I’m irritating.

Went home and met Brad Lullllllll coincidentally. Hah. BRAD LUL OR WHATTTT?! Dream on eh.

I’m looking forward for SA trek and the overnight trek next Thursday! Coming B&B? Love you B&B and the trekEarthlings!

Somehow or rather, I thought about you along the way. Maybe I was trying too hard to be perfect which by right nothing is perfect in this world. Just so you know, I loved you and I know for now things will never be the same again. Sometimes, the memories that we shared, tends to get hold of my mind.

I’m moving on now. I am. I don’t expect to see myself moving on so fast. You’ve got my friends to thank for this wonderful life given after you left. I know you have moved on without me long long time ago. And I know, she will make you happy.

But I thank you for the beautiful relationship you gave me. Even though there are patches and holes every moment, still, I love you so much. It’s true what they said, we need two hands to clap. All along, I figured that I was the only one clapping and trying so hard to make the relationship works.

Just so you know, things will never be the same again.

Happy weekends all! I so love you !