When I see you lying on that bed, waiting for answers from the doctors, my heart sank.
When I see you cry, seeing yourself in this state, my heart sank even deeper.
I may not be the best you ever had, but I certainly will pray for your recovery tho we both know its impossible. But I do believe in miracle. Miracles are bound to happen and I know it will.
I don't want you to leave neither do I want to see you suffer. I want you to know how much I really love you even tho at times I may neglect you.

As a human, I don't have the ability or power to stop whatever god wants to do. I don't want you to feel that this is the end. Its not. You still have all of us, praying silently for you whenever those eyes met.

Although you may appear to be normal, but I know you're suffering inside. You acted as tho nothing has happened. But deep down in your heart, only god knows.

Today, I laid tears for you. I can't bear to see you suffer like this not knowing what's going on. If I could ask god for something, I would want him to trade my place with you. Cos I'd rather suffer than to see you suffer.

Thursday's outing was wonderful & lovely. I think, I've found happiness. :)