Friday, September 12, 2008
8:27 AM
"If you love me only in my dreams, let me be asleep forever."
I am having love sick now. Due to the fact that I can't really breathe and having coughs since we went out to watch our first movie tgt.
Whatever.
I don't wanna care. I don't wanna lose in the end fighting the battle. I've kept things from you, which maybe, I'm not supposed to. But you know, I'm not that kind of person who will open up and tell you everything I feel.
The fact is, I don't wanna lose my happiness that I just got.
I hate the fact that I can't make you happy but on the other hand, you are trying so hard.
I've told you time and again, I'm not the best.
I don't know why suddenly I became like this. Maybe, its too much for me to take.
Let fate decides. I always believe in fate.
I don't want you to know how bad I feel at this point of time cos I don't want to ruin anything right now.
If you know how bad I feel, I'm sure things will be different from what it is right now.
To see you happy, I won't hesitate to leave.
:'(