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Another mundane post. If you don't wish to listen/read, I suggest you leave. Neither would I want you here.

As mention in the previous post, I'm confused, lost and definately feeling a little bit insecure.
After many heartbreaks, I tried so hard to shrug off any love that comes along the way. Not that I wish for it. But you know, it seems so hard to accept another love when you are about to heal yourself from the previous hurt. Shit after shit, I don't know when it will end.
I am single and yes, my heart is taken. I don't know if it's temporary or will it stay like this forever. The man I've fallen for, is the man with an ambiguous character which makes it more difficult for me to understand. But, this feeling I had knows no flaws and imperfection. I won't say what I feel is LOVE. Somewhat, this four letter word freaks me out. I don't know why.

A month back, I thought, I've found what I need. I've found what I want. But I was wrong. I was proved wrong in a spur of a moment. Whatever it is, that was the past. I don't want to dwell about it.

After that, I became more cautious in choosing partners. I fathomed, I could live without them. Cos, they ARE not everything. I spent my time with my friends and closest ones more than spending time, ALONE. I choose to avoid any unexpected tears. It hurts you know.
Right now, I'm confused, lost and insecure. My mind is fucked by many things. With stories after another stories. With you, giving me hopes and you make me feel love. It was beautiful and splendid.

You get what I mean? This is what happens when things gets out of hand.
*sighs*

I would be glad to know, you are sincere.

I'm confused cos I don't know what/who to trust to make me happy.
I'm lost cos I've yet to find the route to happiness.
I'm feeling rather insecure cos, my mind is fucked with thousands of negative things.
Babies. For this, I need you more than anyone else. :(

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