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Wednesday, October 8, 2008
9:05 PM

Do you believe in horoscopes? As a matter of fact, I do. Don’t ask me why. Whenever my hand gets hold of any magazines, I will turn to the horoscope section first. True enough that we shouldn’t rely too much on them cos afterall, god is responsible for anything that has happened or has yet to happen.

I did not attend class on Wednesday cos I’m darn bloody lazy and I woke up quite late to get ready to school. I shall be a good girl from now on. I prayed for that *cross fingers*.

I miss trekking. I miss my trekkers, my B&Bhood and of course, Keith. I miss all. I have not been attending trainings cos of __________.
I hoped so much, things will not change. :( I heard stories and saw PM nicks and it hurts.
I don’t want trek or anything to affect OUR friendship.

Wednesday is filled with (HEARTS) I supposed?

This is a story created and it’s not related to me fyi. : )

Initially, the heart refused to get to know cos the head thought that the heart HAS been stolen for real by this GUY who claimed the world is her. The heart refused to “join venture” with _. The head thought that, that GUY gonna be there for her forever. Little did she know that GUY has hurt her deeply. The head didn’t want anymore, the heart stop searching and moved on without anyone.

BUT.

The moment B met H, B felt secure. The sense of security that any girl would want to feel. B tried so hard, tried so many different ways to get rid of H but B just couldn’t bring herself to do it.
On the other hand, H kept coming and giving B hope that she will meet with happiness one day.

B is ready to be loved and love once again but she is not prepared to be hurt AGAIN.

One day, H asked B. Here goes the conversation.

H : Can I ask you something?

B: Yes, what?
H: Do you have feelings for me?
B: Err, why you ask eh? Err, yes. U?
(B is blushing real bad cos this is the first time she had to confessed to a guy she like)
H: Me too :)

B is so bloody happy. She jumps for joy and thank god. She was hoping that H wasn’t at all interested in her cos H on the other hand seems apathetic.

As days goes by, H and B has been texting and calling each other every day. B was happy that at least, she doesn’t have to cry and moan for days and weeks over that GUY.

B didn’t wanna rush. H too. Both are afraid to be hurt and get hurt. One day, B told H.

H: I like you, in fact I’m beginning to love you.
B: Me too :’)
H : I don’t know if this is too early for us. I’m afraid we might end up in regrets. We have to think and be prepared of what the outcome is. It takes 2 hands to clap.
B: True enough. I don’t wanna rush either cos I’m afraid of hurt. Yes, it takes two hands to clap.
H: When we love each other too early a high chance of losing it is early too.
B: Yeah, so I’d better stop loving you or not to love you so much cos I don’t want to get disappointed in the end.
H:You can love me if you want to.. Because, I love you too.
( Note that B is tearing)
B: Me too. But how?
H: In that case, I think we have to love each other.
So then, H asked B a million dollar question.
H: Are you willing to take the risk?
B: I am. The moment I said, I love you, I am left with two choices.
To stay or to leave and stop loving you. And I can’t leave and stop loving you cos I have loved you to the extent that I can’t bear to leave you.

And things went on pretty fine for both of them. Even though there were “no strings attached” still, their heart is as one.

But somehow along the way, B doubt H love for her. H told B his past, his ugly past. And B wasn’t that good herself. That is why B is afraid that karma will strike on her.

B is afraid that H still loves his ex girlfriend cos he seems like to.
B is afraid that H will turn his back on her cos B had enough of it.
B is afraid that “this” is going nowhere.
B is just afraid that H didn’t love her(tho he claimed so).
And B is tired of starting all over again.

I don't know how to help B, do you?

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