sweetest-poison

2008-11-30T03:56:00.000-08:00

I AM SORRY LOVES.

I know I very mentel, itchy ass to change url over and over again.

But ah, I promise, this will be the last. (I supposed)

Forgive me, pls. mwahs.

http://albaniamiller.wordpress.com

Till then, xoxo.

2008-11-29T02:30:00.000-08:00

If I could make the font bigger, I would.

2008-11-25T23:22:00.000-08:00

TAGGED BY SHAQ!

RULE#1 :People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE#2 :Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.

Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. What will you do if your whole family went overseas for a week and you’re left at home alone?- Have a sleepover and invite my girlfriends!

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?- NO!

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?- As how long he will make me wait. Unless sh*ts happens!

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?

- I will save the money and spend it wisely (AS IF!).

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?

- Haha, I have fallen for my best friend when I was in Primary Six. And we actually confessed after we became best friends!

6. Which is more blessed, being loved by someone or loving someone?

- Both. To love is to give. In other words, give & take.

7. List out 5 favorite things that you like and 3 things about yourself.

Five favourite things;

1) Lappy.

2) Handphone!

3) Bangles.

4) Watches.

5) Dresses!

Three things;

1) I am growing and growing horizontally everytime I had a meal.

2) I love to daydream about my future!

3) As I said, I am sensitive and egoist. *eyebrows raising*

8. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?

- Yessssssssssa! Yesterday!

9. What makes you sad?

- When things don't go my way.

10. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?

- At the age of 28, I want to be blissfully married and have many many kids!

11. Who currently is the most important to you?

- GOD, My family, girlfriends, B&B, Asslove.

12. What is bothering you in your life right now?

- That my eyes has been twitching since 4 days ago!?

13. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

- Married but poor. Afterall, money you don't bring with you when you are six feet under!

14. What are the things you wanna do?

- I want to have a diploma, degree(hopefully), be a filial daughter and work hard just like my mother.

15. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, and both of them are the same, who would you pick?

- None. If one of them is really meant for me, no matter what or when, we will still be together!

16. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- I forgive but I don't forget. It's not easy as you think it is.

17. How do you say goodbye to someone you don’t want to let go?

- Don't ask. Just where's the "good" in the goodbye.

18. If there is a choice between lover and friends, who would you choose?

- Friends and lovers are the same. I will be with both.

19. Will you fall in love soon?

- I am already and hopefully still in days to come.

20. Name 10 people who are important in your life as of now.

- GOD, Mummy, Khairul Hafiz, Fyqah, Mira, Auni, Rozzy, Yans, Manda, Baky, Myra, Fany, Eri, Sally, Awallul, Zul, Vicknesh, Ian, Vik, Syafie, Adela, Ailin, Hanz, Shaqif, Naine, Sherry, Afiqbabi, Apit, Diq. Too many already.

5 people I tagged:
I'll leave it to you guys to do it or not! Mwahs.

2008-11-24T03:25:00.000-08:00

"Real Love is caring about the happiness of another person without any thought for what we might get for ourselves. It’s also Real Love when other people care about our happiness unconditionally. It is not Real Love when other people like us for doing what they want. Under those conditions we’re just paying for love again. We can be certain that we’re receiving Real Love only when we make foolish mistakes, when we fail to do what other people want, and even when we get in their way, but they don’t feel disappointed or irritated at us. That is Real Love (true unconditional love), and that love alone has the power to heal all wounds, bind people together, and create relationships quite beyond our present capacity to imagine."

I was browsing through about Real Love for that "siao". When I came across this.

2008-11-23T07:18:00.000-08:00

As much as hated you, as much as I dislike your presence in class, I will still dedicate a Birthday post for you, okay?

Actually, I have a lot to talk about this guy above.

His name is Kartikgayan, he is the most irritating guy in my class cos he will always do something to provoke me.

"You all fight fight ah, one day will get married you know!" - Syafiq

"SIAO ah! I don't want my son or daughter to look retarded!" - Albania

"I don't want to disgrace my cock!" - Kartik

Kanina lah kartik. You think I want to marry you so much is it?

Anyho, I want to wish you happy 18th birthday. At last you are half-legal. Lol.

And please eh, stop asking for trouble in class already. I don't want to ended up marrying you in future!

xoxo, Albaniaa.

2008-11-22T22:15:00.000-08:00

Scene one.

Khai : How's your boyfriend? Break liao?

Me : Fuck you lah!

Khai : Aiya, surely break one ah. You just see.

Me : WTF, why sia?

Khai : Don't know, you just wait and see lor.

Scene Two.

Nisa : Babe, kau da break pe?

Me : HUH! NO!

Scene Three.

An : Do you think people who are in a relationship are actually loyal to one another?

Me : (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Scene Four the fcuktard.

Him : I PRAY THAT YOUR BOYFRIEND CHEATS ON YOU!

Thanks.

2008-11-22T20:26:00.000-08:00

I know I'm fickle minded. I still need my blogspot cos I'm a noob when it comes to Eljay. :(

So, I will still be here!

2008-11-10T19:22:00.001-08:00

At times I felt that I have not poured out everything here.

At times I felt that my life is just like a cycle.

I've been through the worst and also the best.

Right now, it's time to face the fact.

I have to start opening myself up for the sake of avoiding depression(NOT!).

I'm moving.

If you know, you'll know. :)

xoxo, Albaniaa.

2008-11-10T05:33:00.000-08:00

Funny ah, to be friends with the one you once so called "hate". Just because the first impression was shes-that-arrogant-bitch, doesn't mean I am okay!

Am I? you decide okay!

So here it goes baky and since you called me baby, I'm calling you one too. My baky bby, I hope our friendship will last cos I seriously think that we have a lot of connections and FATE, oh gawd. It's a small world afterall. and Mr H, does it ring any taco bells to you? lol.

& I seriously miss my B&B. We need a proper meet up soon, loves. It's been a while since we last spent the time together.

The most irritating man on this planet Earth is Awallul Babi Biol. Never ever chat with him on msn cos he will irritate you to the extent whereby you feel like stuffing babi nose up his ass.

I think I need a new online journal, for now.

2008-11-09T23:56:00.000-08:00

HAPPY SEXAYE 20TH BIRD'DAY AREP PENANG.

May you'll be blessed in everything that you do. Enjoy your birthday and don't forget to shave what's necessary.

xoxo, Albaniaa.

2008-11-08T20:36:00.000-08:00

I WANTED YOU!

I had a missed call from Nisa when I was fast asleep. So I texted her back.

“Makcik, nape call tadi? Aku baru bgn!” Albaniaa
(Auntie, why called me just now? I just woke up)
“ Ish3. Tido rupenye. Haha. Tkd.. bulu pepek aku hilang. Nak kau tolong carikkan. Haha. Tak lah, aku nak ajak kau kua tadi. Gi tdo alik la sleepin beautifool!” Nisaa.
(Ish3. Sleeping. Haha. Nothing ah, my pubic hair went missing. I wanted to ask you to help me search for it. Haha. No lah, I wanna ask you out. Go sleep back la sleepin beautifool!)

I wonder how pubic hair can go missing(!?). Nisa, nisa. *shakes head*

So the whole day, I rot at home. Supposed to follow Awallul and gang to West Coast but I woke up late. Bummerr. Watched Camp rock, Big Stan and Scary movie(2000) on my lappy. I didn’t know that my Saturday today is so effing mundane. L

Yesterday, meet up with Nisa & Ida for a while. After 819287310 months now, I got to meet Su’aidah Samson!

“Kau kan Al, dari secondary tak abes2 ngan kipas kau! Time PE, panas je mengipas!” Ida.
(You ah Al, from secondary till now with your fan! Whenever there’s PE and you feel hot, you will fan yourself)
If I don’t fan myself, who will! Kepo.

We shared our present life & love stories of course.

I’m missing secondary school now.
I missed doing maths worksheet given by Mr Png.
I missed doing colourful notes for Humanities.
I missed doing practicals.
I missed having Mrs Heng showing tantrums.
I missed Mdm Zainah praising me as the “good girl” when the fact is only god knows.
I missed doing written homework.
I missed studying(seriously).
I missed the 50 cents potato that I usually craved for.
I missed hearing bells.
I missed pulling up my socks and pull down my skirt whenever there’s attire check.
I missed doing written test and examinations.
I missed my desk and my chair which will always be kicked by that irritating Jaryl. The leg so long okay!
I missed lining up for class after recess and there the sec 5’s girls will gossiped and crapped together.
But to top it all, I MISS JVS and the people who were once and in it!

NAZIHAH!

I was browsing through my chatlogs when I came across the conversations between Asslove and me. I miss those times somehow. :(

2008-11-07T23:31:00.000-08:00

I will hold on, promise.

2008-11-05T18:01:00.000-08:00

Here's how I spent my week without Asslove. Happy? You decide.
Last week : Yes, as promised, here's the update about Pelapah Waterfall trek with my dearest trekEarths. I have a lot to update especially about FF (Fuck Face). Yes, you might have the gist of whom I'm referring to.
The night before, my two lovely bitches, Yans & Rozzy slept over at Granny's crib. We slept together for many nights already. And I love it cos I will end up raping Rozzy.

FUCK FACE, FUCK FACE, FUCK FACE!

See everyone is standing straight except for him. FF like that what, never know how to stand straight!

As early as 5.30 am we woke up and as early as 5.45 am FF already irritate us with his stupid theories, questions and jokes. (Seriously, his jokes ain't funny!)

FF : Eh, Yans the (compartment at Yans trekking bag) supposed to be outside lah.
Yans : Don't care lah!

And you know the train towards Kranji has opened for us and he's still struggling to put it outside when Yans already told him "Don't care!"

Me : Eh bodoh! She say don't care then don't care lah. If you got cock, would you want to show it?!

I don't know where's the link but see how irritating he is. And I was actually screaming okay.

Almost 90% of this trek is basically water, water & water. As much as I love water, I don't like it when I walk on water with shoes. There goes my PCD shoe, my trekmates favourite shoe too. Muahahaha.

I AM TRYING TO HOLD ON !This is seriously scary, with the logs, woods and slippery rocks. One slip, you will fall. I don't want the risk of falling again!I was the first to sleep and the last to wake up. But I didn't have a good/proper sleep cos of that FF !He went from one corner of the tent to other corner to search for his "Infladable Pillow" Infladable your head!

Then, it was morning and I heard him saying, "I felt water dripping from above the tent siaaa" Eh cb, the seven of us who sleeps so not peacefully didn't felt anything!

And since I was the last to wake up, he woke me up. But he's afraid that I will fuck him off, he stand outside the tent and called my name and saying foul words to wake me up. Now you scared ah! And when I woke up, he bloody ran away.

This picture is effing nice, we love it cos there's no FF(!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Anyone wanna join by saying "NO TO FF?" That's all for the trip. If I recall anything especially about the FF, I'll edit again, okay?

MONDAY :

SCHOOL STARTS! And it means, :(

Monday blues ah okay. I was greeted by Faci saying that she were just talking about me.

So I asked Naine, she told me.

Faci : Where's Albania? Why she like never come?
Classmate : Aiya, she only come thrice a week mah!

I cut your dick then you know ah! Lol.

And oh, I was greeted by Apit's constipated face again!

And my babies and babis never failed to make me laugh and feel so expanded somehow when Vik said that.

This was when I told Afiq that Obama wins. Sometimes Afiq, you need to shut up and stop fooling me.

I added Mummy at MSN and facebook. I asked her to buy me Vans shoe cos I need a shoe. My mummy is like that.

On Tuesday, I did not attend class together with Vic. And so, we had our breakfast at Macdonald Civics. While waiting for my food, there's this guy who came and introduce himself as Stanley approached me. Initially, he was kidding around with the cashier but since I was there, I just laughed together(kepo kan!).

The next day, I checked my facebook, I saw his message.

Internet, cyber world and the planet Earth is really small.

Up next, is how I got to know these bunch of crazy girls who initially hated me! Cos, I looked arrogant. We're the West side okay.

Meet my A.S.S.A that I've mentioned about in the previous posts. See, enemies can become friends!

"TARIK, TARIK, TARIK!"

Baky was struggling to pull her extensions and this face was caught in the act. Please eh Baky, itu muke sungguh tak perlu.

K, bye. Kak Leha/Sally kepo.

2008-11-03T19:10:00.000-08:00

I woke up from a nightmare that seems so real. Now, I fear of sleeping.

Today is Tuesday's Black and I missed UT for like god knows how many times. I know I know, I am so lazy to the core that even a walk to the bathroom from my room took me like hours.

Monday? Don't talk about Monday. Monday as usual, a Blue day for many and that includes me. I am thinking too much. Too much. Ok, for now, let's just go with the flow.

Asslove, I miss you. :/

2008-11-03T07:09:00.000-08:00

TRUST!

2008-11-01T23:01:00.000-07:00

I used to miss every single thing about you. I used to cry every night on my bed sheets thinking about how hurt I was when you didn’t care. I used to go on a day without any laughter when I know that it’s the end. But never did once you look back.

It seems like yesterday I had my heart glued to yours and right now, it’s all over. The message you sent earlier caused me to tear. I tried to hold back these tears but it refused. I want you to know that I can’t continue living like this thinking about what you said to me.

I am not the same as any of your ex girlfriends especially that whore. I never choose to leave you neither did I ever choose to turn my back on you. You did. I begged, I tried to stop you, but you went away just like that. I did my part in saving the relationship we once had. But it is all come to no use.

I was hurt bitterly and bruised by your words. And now, after months you left, you came back and told me how much you missed me when in the first place you were the one who tried so hard to make me hate you. I don’t want to make another mistake again.

I am moving on like how you wanted me to. Now that I have, you caught me up again. You blamed me for falling in love with someone else not you. I didn’t plan it this way. Neither would I have guessed to be falling in love so soon. But who am I to blame HIM for whatever he has destined for me?

I’m sorry for being ruthless, apathetic and insensitive. What matters more now is my relationship. Not you.

I’ve cried enough for you, loved and shower my attention to. I am moving on and so can you.
Right now, I love him and it’s all that matters.

Our love-hate story has ended eons ago when you hurled those vulgarities to me.

2008-11-01T20:44:00.000-07:00

"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I had no control over."

Saturday : Went to Vic’s open house with the beloved W35A-ians. Kana, Zube, Xin Hui, Yayuan, Wei Jun, Wei Kang and myself were the first few to reach his place. That KIASU Xin Hui ah. Vic’s mom not yet even prepared the food. Lol.

Slacked at Vic’s void deck while waiting for the stars, Fie, Adelaa, Hanz & Qif.

KANA wear so nice, I like. Farhan, any signs of love yet? (inside joke)

CHONG, what's that POSE FOR!?
Adelaa, Meena (Vic's gf)

Syafie, you know I’m always there to support you. Go for it okay? Loves loves

After slacking at Vic’s place for a while, we decided to go bowling at Orchid Country Club. It was of course fun and humiliating at the same time! The first game I scored 13 and the second game I scored 23. I improved by 10 okay! Thanks to Farhan who taught me how to bowl.

At the basement, Adelaa asked me a lame funny question.

Adelaa : How many people can sit on bikes?

Surrounded by pro-bowlers. erggggggggh.

FARHAN, kau seriously macam paham okay! I won't trust you and your retarded skills anymore!
Asslove came down while I was bowling and we went home after that.

p/s : I love my Saturday with loves.

2008-11-01T08:07:00.000-07:00

Trust is a very big word. Don't ignore it, love.

I love you.

xoxo, Albaniaa.

2008-10-30T20:05:00.000-07:00

"I wanted you to hold me when I fall."

I nearly give it up when I feel that it's impossible for us.

I have doubts about us going far.

I have my fears of getting hurt again.

Then I realised, this is somehow true. I can't go a day without thinking about you. I tried not that I don't to stop thinking about you but I can't. I don't know whether was it love that I felt or was it just merely an infatuation/crush.

There was this point of time where you & I both argued about these. I am ego. I tried my very best to avoid you, severe all connections just for the sake of forgetting you but you were trying so hard to remain friends with me. I see how much our friendship means to you. I was touched.

You are like my best friend, where I pour out everything and never did I leave one out. I was being honest and I tell you every single thing that has happened. You listened and you were there when I needed someone to talk to.

Khairul Hafiz Khamis, thank you & I love you. I know I've never been this sweet before. But I don't know why, I feel so blessed to have to get to know you and allow you to be in my life.

I won't say much here cos I believed that you're old enough to understand my feelings somehow. :)

And the story about B & H, has a happy ending eventually.

On a happier note, I'm back from Pelapah. Will update soon once I got hold of those pictures we took! And while I was at Pelapah, I don't forget to miss you, asslove.

Good day loves.

2008-10-27T19:26:00.000-07:00

I thought it's 2008 where typical bitches like you have gone extinct. You can say what you want to say, you can stare all you want, you can spread rumours like you always did but I don't give a damn cos you're just creating a drama out of your jealousy, love.

I'm not pretty like you.

I'm not hawt like you.

I'm not an A.S.S.A.

And maybe, I'm just not a bitch like you.

my diploma is all that matters. You can hate me all you want cos it's your choice. Pest like you don't affect me at all. I choose this way because I don't give a fuck to your nonsense. But rememeber to grow up, ASSA.

xoxo, Albaniaaa.

2008-10-27T11:40:00.000-07:00

Saturday : AMAZING RACE with B&B was uberly fun and hilarious of course. With loves around, win or lose, I’m still happy. You see, our first stop was a mistake. We thought it was E-HUB but eventually it was East Coast Park. Bummer hor. See ah, my gut feelings. Should have trusted Vik dick’s feelings instead. Lol.

Went home feeling so tired. And well, I had a good sleep cos on the 26th, no one is happier than I was.

Pelapah Waterfall trek will be on Wednesday. As I said earlier, I’m sexcited and up for it. I’ve not been going trainings(please pardon me) and I’m gaining weight I’d guessed. I am sure getting fatter, with Asslove and holidays now. Die ah die.

Monday : It’s 2.10 am now. I’m wide awake and not feeling any sleepy. Meet up with Asslove just now and he’s now sleeping like a babi at home, leaving me alone here. Mummy just got back from overseas and Wednesday will be my turn going.

And oh, don’t try so hard to make me jealous okay? Cos I’m not, asshole. Muahahhaa. Your tricks, not working. So try harder!

Dearest ex.

Lately, you’ve been bugging my mind. Come to think of it, I should have just let it passed. I’m no match for your capability, perfections and etc. Those tears I laid for you, time I wasted on thinking about you when you’re out there, happily laughing, I think, we’re better off this way.

I don’t know why, you have to come back again. You said, you still love me and what nots but those are just words that mean nothing but WORDS. I’ve loved you, cared for you, but you took things for granted. You got mad when you found out that I love someone else, you come back just to have my attention back on you. I told you, I still love you but all you did was to hurt me.
Remembered when I accepted you the third time? After that, you left. Leaving me hanging. It’s been the second time you did that and I swear to you, it’s not even funny.
You hurled those vulgarities to me and few days after, you acted as if nothing happened.
Solely, I don’t blame you. Cos I believed that I’m at fault too. But you never admitted your mistakes. I’m done and through with you trying to hurt me time and again. I’m happier right now. Your wishes are granted that is to see me happily living with someone else.

xoxo, Albaniaa.

2008-10-24T07:23:00.000-07:00

{EDITTED}

Thursday : A self-declared holiday. School holiday will commence next week and I'm in holiday mood now. As today is communication-sai module, I choose not to attend school still. Uncle Jamal has left for Jakarta, leaving me home alone. Mummy has left for Langkawi. I'm home alone.

At night, decided to meet up with the trekkers at causeway point to bought the stuffs for Pelapah. I'll be going to Pelapah waterfall next week. Sexcited. Berrry sexcited.

After that, planned to meet Kecik. And on Thursday night, we had a very, very long talk. Night till the early morning. I don't know, somehow I just have the doubts. :/

Never mind that, time will tell everything.

Friday : Meet ups with bbygirls for a movie date. For those of you who haven't catch High School Musical 3, must go watch okay! I'm telling you cos for the first time I cried watching High School Musical. It was so sweet till I cried twice in the cinema. Bummer.

KAK LEHA! At vivo, met up with Ipin and Babe for a while before proceeding to Sherry's house.

It was a dream come true; to be with you. & I love you no matter how kanasai you are!
you owe me something,asslove.

{EDITTED}

2008-10-23T19:08:00.000-07:00

Happy sexy 18th Birthday Yans bby.

Someone's half legal now!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BBY, may you'll be blessed in anything that you do and may today brings happiness and joy for you, love.

You know, Rozzy, me & you are EIGHTEEN now!

Remember what we planned okay!

Last long with Jackson, and take care sweetheart.

I love you many many.

Thanks for always there for me when I needed someone to talk and cry to.

I AM SEXCITED, are you?

xoxo, Albaniaa.

2008-10-22T07:26:00.000-07:00

Wednesday : Faggot woke up late again despite being woken up by Mummy and Naine. Mummy has left for Langkawi and I'll be home alone again. Sighs.

Uncle Jamal will be leaving on Thursday. Bigger sighs.

I'll be home alone, home alone agaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin.

D'yraa, that miang girl prompt me at msn and thought of having lunch together. Initially, we planned to have lunch at Causeway point but this another miang girl, Rozzy said it was damn far. (If PATAH were to ask you meet him at JB pun kau sanggup!) lol.

So end up, we had our lunch date at coffeeshop. Romantic hor lunch date at coffeeshop!

It was a coincidence that Rozzy and me wore both the same material for our bottoms and same goes to D'yraa & Raudaaah. It wasn't planned.
This three pepek miangs say this picture looks nice.

Because, "ALBANIAA takde!"

Bloody rude ah, especially the one with the bangs!

that one must censored ah, who knows another bangla send message again! And I don't know what's the motive of raising my hand, you know not?

THE LEGALLY EIGHTEEN!
THE ILLEGALLY SEVENTEEN, MUAHAHAHAHA.

Raudaaah, pantat kau, aku panggang nak!
this one more biadap, I asked the D'yraa & Rozzy to snap those wearing skirts.

bloody hell go and zoom in that part!
Revenge is sweeet.
And D'yraa, it's been seventeen years already, you don't know how to zip your pants is it?
And lastly, I cropped those two not so important faces, lol.
So my babiloves, can grab these photos already.
More lunch dates pleassssssssssssssssssssssssssssseeeeee.
This time, wear nothing okay.
(inside joke).

2008-10-21T20:23:00.000-07:00

LUNCH DATE WITH BABYLOVES <3

SEXCITED!

2008-10-21T05:10:00.001-07:00

OMMMMMMMMMMMG!

Syafie said I've grown CHUBBIER & FATTER! And he didn't even recognised me from BEHIND!

No no no, I'm not going to allow these FATS to rule over my whole body.

I need to cut down on my food intakes per day. It is seriously increasing!

Please tell me to STOP EATING LIKE BABI! That will be good.

p/s: Some people just couldn't stop pretending.

2008-10-20T23:56:00.000-07:00

I bumped into Cynthia Pang on my way to school just now.

We talked for a bit and I had to change train.

She asked me;

"Eh, this one, fake eyelash or real one ah?" Cynthia

"This one REAL ONE LAH!" Albaniaa

Eh cha-bor! Real one ah! lol.

Somehow, I missed JVSIANS & JVS herself, do you? :/

My grades are seriously going down to the core of this earth. I can't afford to be late anymore & I can't afford to skip anymore lessons. Hell, no.

Today is computing and I'm so dead bored in class. Nothing gets into my head. Tmrw, cognitive UT. It sure gonna be sucks balls like locheng's(inside joke). lol.

I was talking to a new friend yesterday when he asked me random question.

you think I Filipino maid is it!?

A bangla from Malaysia sent me a message at friendster. I think I've found my second career, MAID. '________'

I am dead. dead. dead. dead bored now.

And oh yes YANS BABY, three more days and you will be half legal! Are you sexcited as I am!

Laters!

2008-10-20T06:34:00.000-07:00

Monday blues is contagious. Cabbed down to school and had my $20 wasted. Know why? Firstly, I thought I was late and could catch up with yans, rozzy & vik but they got their butts in their respective classes by the time I reached. Secondly, I was in a hurry cos it's "temperature taking day" and I promised Alex to be early since he brought me an extra thermometer, how sweeeeet. Thirdly, looking at the constipated looking faci, makes me even want to go home. And lastly, I skipped third meeting after staying for fucking 2 hours doing nothing in class.

As PER NORMAL (I have a feeling I might be spending another 6 years in RP!), we skipped third meeting and watched "Oh baby". An Indonesian movie which is similar to HSM but not much of similarities.

Before we proceed to Causeway point, I waited for that bloody Sean tall to help him out with his song. And I bumped into the long lost friend, BOON KIAT. That tall babi, I missed so much.

I remembered him being my cheerleader and supporter when we climbed up Datuk. I don't know ah Boon Kiat, is it just you who is tall or I am just short?

Oh baby. Second movie date with foursome girlfriends. Next, HSM 3 and the coffin. And I heard it's effing scary lor.

Fany kept playing with her PSP which Yan (her boyboy) gave her. And from class to causeway point, she kept playing with her PSP.

Yan, you should give me the PSP instead.We slacked at civics after watching movie and we had a great conversation about love?

"Always find someone who calls you beautiful, instead of hot. And find someone who never insulted you." Albaniaa

Mathafucking Hawttttttttt.

I was asked to do the housework cos Uncle Jamal is staying with us for three days. I haven't been doing housework for 45 years already. And I did housework yesterday! But it irks me the most when I have to even clean the toilet. Bloody hell.

And ohs, good luck to Sean Tall for Mr SEG! you can do it! I'll bring banner and pom pom for you later and when you see one BADAK dancing and cheering for you, that's me.

2008-10-20T01:51:00.000-07:00

you rawred above my head and swept me away.

It wasn't easy to make a choice. A decision to be made in order to make our lives more happier, I supposed?

An imprudent thought of letting it go seems not to make things easier but instead, it make things look uglier.

On the surface, it looks beautiful than I can ever imagine but beneath it, only god knows how it looks like.

"Fall, out of my head."

I want to do just that. To make things easier, simpler for you/me.

Cos I still care, asshole.

2008-10-19T08:37:00.001-07:00

{editted}

Friday : I didn’t have the intention to go to school at all cos I stayed up till 4 am the previous night. : (
Make plans with Awallul to go to the beach. We took a bus from Clementi and from there, the bus ride was effing long I tell you. My butt cramped and to add to the pain, Awalull is so boringggg to the max. Lol.
Find a spot and sing sing sing till the sun sets.

WARNING : My face looked so kental & awallul looked like cock. muahaha.

On the way home, it rained from my eyes and flows down my cheek.
Sighssssssssssssssssss.
I’m weak ain’t I? Mathafucker.

P/S : PLEASE DON'T GO AWALLUL'S BLOG, OKAY? JUST DON'T.

2008-10-19T08:28:00.000-07:00

Lucky I’m in love with my best friend;

I tried not to come any closer to you. I tried to avoid you, tried my very best to stay away.
But the more I’m doing that, I’m creating a barrier between us, which I didn’t intend to!

I’ll do anything just for the sake of seeing myself happy and eating like a fat whore again.
Errrrrrrrrrgh, get me married faster so that I don’t have to face these again!
Lol, I’m serious though.

VIRGO WOMAN

She will be similar to Leo woman in appearance. A slim woman who walks withconfident and proud. She has an egg shape facial structure, high and roundforehead. She likes to look straight as if she is searching. She is not apretentious type and will always say what she thinks.You will see Virgo woman walks fast. She will try her best to be perfect, tolook perfect and to feel perfect even though there is no such perfection.She is very delicate of what andhow she dress. She is bright and easilydespair with obstacles. She likes smart guy who will be compatible with her,so if you are a rich dumb guy, you can forget about her right now.She is not a very possessive or jealous person for she expect respect fromher love one. She does not like a part time lover, or a temporary mate. Ifshe finds her dream man, she will not go away. If she does not like you, shewill always keep a certain distant. Act proper and appropriate is herdiscipline.She does not like and can not stand bad languages, cursing words or phrase.She likes a gentleman who open the doors for her. She wants to feelprotected and when a man taking care of her, she will feel like a completewoman.She memorizes everything about other people and about herself very well. Shecan really keep secret, you can trust heron this. She likes a refreshingand a mild scent. She is very delicate in maintaining her beauty, so youcould see she is seriously picking soap which match and most suit her skin.Do not comments her on this very picky habits, it is her happiness inworking full times as a self beautifier.She is not an innocent angle for sometimes she can be as tough as steel.Even she easily despair, she is not the type to cry over it. She is a shytype, so making speech in front of the room can make her nervous even shewalks and talks confidently.She only search for true love , not just any love. Her love is an ideal one.She likes to think no one is neater and as effective as her, which canirritate you sometimes for there is no such thing. She likes sweet talk, butshe can slip and say something unpredictable and unbearable to you too. Whenshe stops getting mad, she will totally forget what she just said and be anangle again. If you have a date with her , you'd better be there on time.Flowers and sweet word can calm her down. If you want to say sorry , make itbrief and straight forward. Do not drag your apologetic words into a longmaking it up events, it could lead you to another world war. She likes herman to dress nice and clean. She is good in details especially with money.Do not make she thinks that she is a clown or funny.In the beginning of knowing her, please try not to glance at other prettywoman so much. Early period of dating her, try not to hold her so much inpublic, it would not be a proper thing to do. She loves books, stage playand music and likes to criticize about them too.Criticism woman is her icon including big and small things in lifestartingfrom your hair, your dress , and the way you talk. If you are in love withher, be as almost perfect as your can.

Almost true but one thing, is not exactly who I am.
“Even she easily despair, she is not the type to cry over it”
I’m a crying whore for your info. I despaired easily and I will cry for days over it.
WHAT THE FUCK right?
I wished I was stronger. Why isn’t my heart made of steel instead of wool?!

“Come on, be like your mother. You have your mother’s blood in you. See how strong she is!” Awallul

I may have my mother’s features, height, eyes and lips but honestly, I don’t have the ability to be strong just like her. How I wished I could.
Just so you know, I miss you too :/

2008-10-17T04:28:00.000-07:00

I'm so bored right now with Awallul at East Coast. Cos he's super uberly borinnnnnnnnng to the core. You won't wanna know what he did just now to me. It's so crude.

Shall update once the oh-so-mundane day with him is over!

2008-10-16T05:27:00.000-07:00

"I'll wait for you, I promise you"

Why should I be the one waiting and not you?

2008-10-15T05:59:00.000-07:00

" It's not my fault I fell in love. You are the one that tripped me."

Tuesday : Unlike the previous week, it wasn’t a Tuesday’s blue for me. Indeed, I went crazy today despite having a sucky UT and extra hardworking (which I haven’t been for the last 1897892091 years).
After school, went to bugis to meet the long lost girlfriend, khairun. Of course, I miss her. We talked, gossiped, had our evening spent by shopping. And she is so sweet cos she bought me a mini dress as a belated birthday gift. Sweet ah!

Went to have dinner at Zam Zam. We talked about secondary school days and love life. Yes, love life.
Just so you know, she’s the friend I left for the ex boyfriend. How crude and selfish I was back then. Whatever, it’s the past now. And I’m sure each one of us is living happily now.

This is how she talked to her boyfriend.

*Above* We were so enthu in taking a pic when the MAMAK just PUT the plate in front of my camera! Like nobody business. We posed so nice already okay.

BIADAP NYE MAMAK!

You won't wanna know what was I doing!And we looked alike still.Awwww, sister sister hug.Fierce ah my team mates. lol.

“If people had strokes, I’m having a heart problem.”

I have healed fully. In fact, I have healed on the day that I cried the most.

I don’t know why but I just didn’t want you to come by anymore. In the past, I used to hope and prayed that each time my phone beeps, it will be you. But now, it’s different.
You know, you hurt me. You know you hurt me enough. More than I can take. I had enough of you going and coming back. I’m not your hotel.

I know how it feels when someone you like/love doesn’t feel the same way as you do. I’m sorry. That is all I can give and say to you.

2008-10-13T07:49:00.000-07:00

Ian Luke Joseph sent us an email regarding guys. Eh bangla, you send hundred emails of these also it won't change my perception of you okay! lol.

Even so, I find it very sweet afterall.

1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about....

2) Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile(:

4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

5) Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THEN YOU LOVE THEM!!!

9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.

10)If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

11)If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and he is really thinking about something

12) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is
Guys rarely say that

13)When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me

14)If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

15) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking
something.

16) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them

17)A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

18)No guy can handle all his problems on his own.
He's just too stubborn to admit it

19)NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!!!
Just because ONE is RUDE doesnt mean he represents ALL of them

20)WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO TALK TO YOU, HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE

21)Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life .

I think I know why you look at me more than a second. :D

So Monday. Not another Monday blues but as usual, I was late. So I cabbed down to school to another mundane Science lesson. However, today's topic was about "genes".

And Syafie prompt me at msn.

Kurang ajar nye budak, aku rele kahwin ngan aci yang kutip hutang dari kahwin ngan kau!

Webcam-ed with Apit for the 986128318791th times. As usual, the baboon never failed to make me laugh.

And Apit, I'm ready.

Got to pay attention in class now! Laters.

2008-10-13T03:01:00.000-07:00

"I believe everything you say & I gave you the best I had"

What's past is past. I should have just let it rot and never turn back. I refused, I was stubborn. I thought by giving those chances back was a wise decision. I was proved wrong. Don't compare me with that whore who only knows how to sleep around and get her freaking hole fucked by men. I'm not perfect, I never said I am. But you, you thought you are perfect. You live in your denial world, picking out mistakes from the girl you once had.

I should have just listen to my own kin. I should have just forget about replying. When you feel like having me around, you said all those nice words just to impress. But when I'm not needed, you treated as if I have gone extinct. My feelings has faded away eversince you hurled those vulgarities to me. But I kept telling myself to give you/us the chance. The chance to start all over again.

Remember you once had me, twice too. And the third time, I was left hanging without an answer. Have you ever thought about how heart broken I am at that point of time? You created a mess in my heart. And when you know, I'm in love with another person. You came back, you crawled back. But then, you blamed me for cheating behind your back when the fact is, we are not even together. Even, my dressings seems to be a problem for you.

I seriously don't know what you want right now. You insulted, mocked, shouted, scolded me I kept mum cos I know, you won't admit defeat even if you know you are in the wrong.

But you forgot, even if you have the last say, doesn't mean you have won and that you are perfect, okay?

Every relationship failed, you blamed solely to the other party because they are not perfect like you. They lied, cheated you but you didn't. And every relationship, you are the one who is always trying to make the relationship and not the other party. *rolled eyes*

Ok, I'm raking up the past. But so what? This is my journal,my online journal. I have the right to pick any dreadful memories of you. Because today, you make me despise you even more.

Sometimes, I just don't understand what am I doing to myself by giving you the chance to break my heart over and over again.

Where were you when I laid those fucking tears for you? When I'm at my worst condition, you were not there, you were not even there when you jolly well know I needed you!

For months, I suffered silently. I had enough of you trying to reconcilled and then you went off just like that. If you think this is a game, then you are wrong. You played those foolish games and I remained silent cos I just didn't want to prolong the matter.

You told others I looked down on you when the fact is, I DID NOT.

And now, when I have started living happily again, you hurled those words again. But, your provocations seems not to work cos I believe this is karma.

Just so you know, I am living happily now without anyone like you. And yes, I'm in love with the guy that not even once said this right into my eyes (even if it's the fact), " amongst all my ex girlfriends, you are the ugliest".

Just so you know, I don't take jokes from you.

2008-10-12T07:55:00.000-07:00

Someone asked me.

" Ah, any new stories from your blog?" KH

"Oh, haven't yet!" Albaniaa

NAH, go read.

FRIDAY : Rot at home, impatiently waiting for next day to come. erggggh. And I'm sick and missed Enterprise lesson for the first time. Not bad eh. But you don't wanna know how many lessons I missed for Cognitive. Rot at home till I received a message from Nur Afiqah Ali to meet up at Causeway point. Fortunatey(or shall I say unfortunately?),I bumped into the two pepek miangs, Cloud and Khai. CLOUD, don't get fresh with her okay!"Eh, you and wah seh how?" Khai

"NO MORE AH!" Albaniaa

"Aiyo, never mind, guys can find one."

"Never mind, boyfriend girlfriend can break, got wife can divorce, got child can send to orphanage, got old parents can send to old folks' home!" Cloud

Now you know why my mind is corrupted!?

Bought some stuffs and bought nail polish, and it's freaking cheap.

And when I saw the brand, _____.

That's why lah cheap.

Saturday: Out the whole day; RAYA-ING! Pictures will be uploaded soon once that inefficient man/boy/mat send me the photos.

Sunday: Went to two houses today. Tok Wan's and Aunt Zed's Mum.

"Ma, when I grow up, I wanna buy these type of houses ah. So nice." Albaniaa

"Can ah, you go and marry a "DATUK". Then don't forget me okay?" Mummy

So, any datuk willing to marry a girl who doesn't know how to cook a rice, clean the house and water the plants?

YOU; owe me one GREEN PACKET!

And to another you; never ever step foot in my life again. Cos you only know how to point out my mistakes and see yourself as a perfect human being. I never knew I feel so stupid again. For all you know, I never wanna see you again.

2008-10-10T02:02:00.000-07:00

AKU MALAS, AKU PENAT.

I'm tired.

Suddenly, I feel the urged to run away from all these. Anyone wants to run away with me too?

FUCK LOVE.

For the first time, my middle finger points out to you.

I'm done with dating guys, what's next?

2008-10-09T19:26:00.000-07:00

Went for trek training. I so miss my trekkers. :(

I've got hold of the Ubin pictures though it's been eons ago. I just miss the fun moments together. How am I able to forget? They are my happy pills and they were there for me whenever I'm down. And not forgetting, this clumsy GIRL here always got herself injured for every trip.

And I wanna know who's the photographer for Ubin trip cos all they took was an unglam shots of me, YOU BETTER OWN UP AH!!

camkerrs.

Note that the RED paper bag contains chipsmore, pringles, prunes, chocolate.

"We won't die if Albaniaa is around!" Manda

"You see how many/much food she brought for an overnight stay in UBIN?!" Manda

so excited to goooo. My first virgin trip you know!Feeling-feeling titanic.Can't you see the excitement in my eyes? I'm going to break my virgin okay!

PULAU UBIN!

I remembered telling Jerral & Rayyan.

"Wah, Ubin nice sia! Bigger than Singapore ah?!" Albaniaa

" '_________________' " Jerral & Rayyan

"MAK kau, minum ke TEGOK ni!" AfiQ

"Diam ah babi!" AlbaniaaRozzy was shocked seeing John posing that way.

and John, that pose wasn't needed!Another unglam shot. Wah wah, navigator leader on the move. All the cock face shown when everyone is tired.this girl is so cute. she's not even shy with strangers. this one, I will remember it for the rest of my life how CHEAPOT can I be!

thanks eh korang.Don't mind the fat legs.B&B, do you miss the fun times we had in the tent as much as I do?If F1 have their own models, we have it too.this is before I flew off my bike, bicycle.& this is after!awww, vik so sweet!I cried like god knows how.

eh Meng Keat, whose taking your photo? LOL.

Afiq was injured too.

Husband & wife.Clyde got his hand cut and the blood, effing scary.
I have to be fed you know! you know how painful it is!

So, from now on, I will never ride bicycle AGAIN!

NEXT.

I miss trainings and only 3 bitches and 1 bastard came down for training. Indulge myself with brownie and ice cream.

We had a good laugh at TRCC while enjoying our sumptous dinner.

" I remembered Albaniaa scratched _____ in front of Edward some more! And she even dropped her bra, some more like Aunty aunty one!" Yans

Yans, you want microphone so the whole world knows?

Anyways, B&B we need to catch up real soon. I miss you guys truck and lorries.

2008-10-09T00:29:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY FARHAN SALLEH BINAWE!

May all your wishes come true, son. (inside joke)

And oh, thanks for being a great friend and be the middle person everytime.

I miss your presence in class somehow.

May you'll be blessed and enjoy your birthday.

p/s: still not yet legal eh.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY SHAQ BBY!

May you'll be blessed in anyhing that you do love. You're 18 now and half-legal now! Enjoy your birthday LOVE! and meet up sooon eh!

ILY, bby.

2008-10-08T21:05:00.000-07:00

Do you believe in horoscopes? As a matter of fact, I do. Don’t ask me why. Whenever my hand gets hold of any magazines, I will turn to the horoscope section first. True enough that we shouldn’t rely too much on them cos afterall, god is responsible for anything that has happened or has yet to happen.

I did not attend class on Wednesday cos I’m darn bloody lazy and I woke up quite late to get ready to school. I shall be a good girl from now on. I prayed for that *cross fingers*.

I miss trekking. I miss my trekkers, my B&Bhood and of course, Keith. I miss all. I have not been attending trainings cos of __________.
I hoped so much, things will not change. :( I heard stories and saw PM nicks and it hurts.
I don’t want trek or anything to affect OUR friendship.

Wednesday is filled with (HEARTS) I supposed?

This is a story created and it’s not related to me fyi. : )

Initially, the heart refused to get to know cos the head thought that the heart HAS been stolen for real by this GUY who claimed the world is her. The heart refused to “join venture” with _. The head thought that, that GUY gonna be there for her forever. Little did she know that GUY has hurt her deeply. The head didn’t want anymore, the heart stop searching and moved on without anyone.

BUT.

The moment B met H, B felt secure. The sense of security that any girl would want to feel. B tried so hard, tried so many different ways to get rid of H but B just couldn’t bring herself to do it.
On the other hand, H kept coming and giving B hope that she will meet with happiness one day.

B is ready to be loved and love once again but she is not prepared to be hurt AGAIN.

One day, H asked B. Here goes the conversation.

H : Can I ask you something?

B: Yes, what?
H: Do you have feelings for me?
B: Err, why you ask eh? Err, yes. U?
(B is blushing real bad cos this is the first time she had to confessed to a guy she like)
H: Me too :)

B is so bloody happy. She jumps for joy and thank god. She was hoping that H wasn’t at all interested in her cos H on the other hand seems apathetic.

As days goes by, H and B has been texting and calling each other every day. B was happy that at least, she doesn’t have to cry and moan for days and weeks over that GUY.

B didn’t wanna rush. H too. Both are afraid to be hurt and get hurt. One day, B told H.

H: I like you, in fact I’m beginning to love you.
B: Me too :’)
H : I don’t know if this is too early for us. I’m afraid we might end up in regrets. We have to think and be prepared of what the outcome is. It takes 2 hands to clap.
B: True enough. I don’t wanna rush either cos I’m afraid of hurt. Yes, it takes two hands to clap.
H: When we love each other too early a high chance of losing it is early too.
B: Yeah, so I’d better stop loving you or not to love you so much cos I don’t want to get disappointed in the end.
H:You can love me if you want to.. Because, I love you too.
( Note that B is tearing)
B: Me too. But how?
H: In that case, I think we have to love each other.
So then, H asked B a million dollar question.
H: Are you willing to take the risk?
B: I am. The moment I said, I love you, I am left with two choices.
To stay or to leave and stop loving you. And I can’t leave and stop loving you cos I have loved you to the extent that I can’t bear to leave you.

And things went on pretty fine for both of them. Even though there were “no strings attached” still, their heart is as one.

But somehow along the way, B doubt H love for her. H told B his past, his ugly past. And B wasn’t that good herself. That is why B is afraid that karma will strike on her.

B is afraid that H still loves his ex girlfriend cos he seems like to.
B is afraid that H will turn his back on her cos B had enough of it.
B is afraid that “this” is going nowhere.
B is just afraid that H didn’t love her(tho he claimed so).
And B is tired of starting all over again.

I don't know how to help B, do you?

2008-10-07T20:14:00.000-07:00

Conversation with Apit

apit says (11:09 AM):
i wana tel u somting
but i hope...
apit says (11:10 AM):
u r able to tk the fact
*
apit just sent you a nudge.
*
♥ ALBANIAA says (11:11 AM):
ape?
apit says (11:11 AM):
ur mum right... well...
♥ ALBANIAA says (11:11 AM):
APE?!
apit says (11:11 AM):
she's actuali a thieve... a robber...
♥ ALBANIAA says (11:11 AM):
HUH?!
how come?
apit says (11:11 AM):
ya...
coz she stole the stars in the skies and put it into ur eyes...
now u knw y u got beautiful eyes?

apit says (11:14 AM):
who invented the alphabet A to Z ehk???
♥ ALBANIAA says (11:14 AM):
ENTAH?
why?
apit says (11:15 AM):
coz if i knw who invented it, i would find them and put us closer together...
chey chey chey!!!
k dah... aku stop it skg...

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

baboon giler.

2008-10-07T18:13:00.000-07:00

"Should you go and let me bruised bit by bit
or
should you just go and leave me alone in my own world."

Guessed I'm okay right now. I deserved to smile and laugh like everyone else. So things like this should not stand in my way.
On a positive note, last weekend we had RAYA outing to the rest of the family who stayed in the East side of Singapore. And yes, I'd guessed I'll be having a splendid raya this year.

I'm looking forward for 11th (:

Sharifah Aini Junior. the F&N boy. lol.Shabil & Uncle Azizi.Aunty zed's priceless face. lol.

Monday :

I stayed on in class for Science lesson. I didn't know why suddenly SCIENCE turned me on. Not in a vulgar way. Surprisingly, I did my part which I thought for the past weeks in semester two, I haven't been contributing much. Pardon me for that cos I am not in the mood.
Like I said, maybe it's because of the relief faci that drives me to a state of semangats.
or is it you?

Again, webcam-ed with Hafiz Apit.

a lot like babooon. muahahaha.

After school, we planned to meet a while before I went off with Rozzy.

"Apit, I'm sorry for what I've done to you, called you, teased you or whatever eh. No matter what, you're still that big but SMALL brother." But I forgot to add, you make me smile till today.

Tuesday :
:(
Tuesday blues, UT suck balls big big, class was a mundane and to add to that, you're being such a pain!

I felt like I'm having a worse time of my life the moment it happens. I shall never be bothered by this. So for now, that's it. I had enough.

Prolly you know by now that my girls and I skipped class again for the countless times. OMGZD!
So then again, thought of watching movie but no, we ended up indulging ourselves with gelare ice cream. Yan, fany’s boyf joined us. Oh that man, FANY must treasure him a lot!

Afterwards, meet up with old school gang plus Brad Lull at Pioneer Mall Macdonald.
Bumped into Ibu & Kakak. Wah, misses flying.

Pak Maman senget face.Cikgu Bedah.

At night, the conversation I had was indescribable. At the very least, you’re being honest of who you were last time. I’ve noted the saying, “what’s past is past”. So, I shall bear the consequences of keeping it to myself.

I don’t want to rush either. I don’t want to see myself getting hurt again(who wants?!).

YOU: It’s so hard to accept the fact that you are solely blaming HER for the cause of our separation.
To another YOU: You make me believe that it won’t kill to know and to tell the truth. Somewhere along the journey, my feelings grow.
And to YOU who’s reading this: I’ve decided. So stop trying so hard!

Before; I gave you love but what you gave me?

Ileane love this pic taken with Ali but, I DON'T.

Cos I look like COCK. '_'

2008-10-06T21:39:00.000-07:00

JUST SHUT UP & FUCK OFF.

I'm suffocating!

2008-10-05T23:46:00.000-07:00

After much thought, I have decided.

And if you know, you'll know.

I'm sorry but feelings cant be forced.

2008-10-04T01:21:00.000-07:00

Another mundane post. If you don't wish to listen/read, I suggest you leave. Neither would I want you here.

As mention in the previous post, I'm confused, lost and definately feeling a little bit insecure.
After many heartbreaks, I tried so hard to shrug off any love that comes along the way. Not that I wish for it. But you know, it seems so hard to accept another love when you are about to heal yourself from the previous hurt. Shit after shit, I don't know when it will end.
I am single and yes, my heart is taken. I don't know if it's temporary or will it stay like this forever. The man I've fallen for, is the man with an ambiguous character which makes it more difficult for me to understand. But, this feeling I had knows no flaws and imperfection. I won't say what I feel is LOVE. Somewhat, this four letter word freaks me out. I don't know why.

A month back, I thought, I've found what I need. I've found what I want. But I was wrong. I was proved wrong in a spur of a moment. Whatever it is, that was the past. I don't want to dwell about it.

After that, I became more cautious in choosing partners. I fathomed, I could live without them. Cos, they ARE not everything. I spent my time with my friends and closest ones more than spending time, ALONE. I choose to avoid any unexpected tears. It hurts you know.
Right now, I'm confused, lost and insecure. My mind is fucked by many things. With stories after another stories. With you, giving me hopes and you make me feel love. It was beautiful and splendid.

You get what I mean? This is what happens when things gets out of hand.
*sighs*

I would be glad to know, you are sincere.

I'm confused cos I don't know what/who to trust to make me happy.
I'm lost cos I've yet to find the route to happiness.
I'm feeling rather insecure cos, my mind is fucked with thousands of negative things.
Babies. For this, I need you more than anyone else. :(

2008-10-04T00:19:00.001-07:00

Today is Saturday. Another boring Saturday. Initially, family planned to have Raya outing but was postpone tonight. Sighs.

I've done few quizzes, thanks to Naine bby.

You Are Fairly Normal in Love

When it comes to love, you have fairly normal ideas and expectations.
Your relationships and ideas may be a bit quirky at times...
But you see love the same way as most people do.

Why You Are Normal in Love

You are normal because you rather die before your romantic partner.

You are normal because you believe a long distance relationship can work.

Why You Aren't Normal in Love

You are abnormal because you have been in love with two people at the same time.

You are abnormal because you believe people only have one soulmate.

Are You Normal in Love?

You Are Picky When it Counts

Like most sane women, you want a great guy who will treat you well.
But you're also willing to put up with a few flaws in your Mr. Right
You should congratulate yourself on having a realistic approach to dating.
You probably have quite a few great guys you can date!

Are You Too Picky When It Comes To Men?

You are Ready to Date Again

If you're not out there already, you should be.
Your ex is long gone from your heart, and you are ready for another relationship.
Any guy you meet gets a clean slate - and no emotional baggage.
Congratulations, you've gotten completely over him.
Now, on to a better guy :-)

It's time for you to start dating!
Post your photo and profile on a bunch of personals sites.
Before long, you won't have any more lonely Saturday nights.

Are You Ready for a New Boyfriend?

You Should Be With an Air Sign!

Your best match is a Gemini, Libra, or Aquarius

Why? You crave excitement and playful banter
Only an Air Sign can match your wit - and keep you on your toes
As for fun, an Air Sign guy will show you plenty, with tons of surprises
Just be sure to introduce him to some new playful experiences as well!

What Sign Guy Should You Date?

Your Average American Name Is...

Nancy Lynn Smith

What's" Your Average American Name?

He Is More Than a Hookup

You've fallen pretty hard for this guy, which could be a great thing.
But if he's just looking for a hookup, this spells trouble.
If your guy wants something serious, than by all means, step things up.
Otherwise, find someone else who's interested in more than a fling.

Is He Just a Hookup?

You Can Definitely Spot a Liar

Maybe you have good instincts. Or maybe you just have a lot of experience with liars.
Either way, it's pretty hard for someone to pull a fast one on you. You're like a human lie detector.

Can You Spot a Liar?

You Are 48% Happy

You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments.
You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.

How Happy Are You?

You Are An ESFP

The Performer

You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.
A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.
You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.
You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.

In love, you are a smooth talker and incorrigible flirt.
While you get into relationships easily, you don't tend to stick around when times get tough.

At work, you do well in groups. You keep everyone laughing through difficult tasks.
You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

How you see yourself: Capable, fair, and efficient

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Incompetent, stubborn, and silly

What's" Your Personality Type?

You Are Somewhat Like Your Mom

Believe it or not, you and your mom are pretty darn similar.
It may not seem like it at times, but you and your mom have a lot of common ground.
You and your mom do understand each other well. You may just need to work on communication.
Over time, you'll probably get closer ... especially if you emphasize the things you like about each other.

Are You Like Your Mom?

You Are Likely an Only Child

At your darkest moments, you feel frustrated.
At work and school, you do best when you're organizing.
When you love someone, you tend to worry about them.

In friendship, you are emotional and sympathetic.
Your ideal careers are: radio announcer, finance, teaching, ministry, and management.
You will leave your mark on the world with organizational leadership, maybe as the author of self-help books.

The Birth Order Predictor

Your Drag Queen Name Is:

Pussy Galore

Drag Queen Name Generator

that's all folks. Till then.

2008-10-03T08:41:00.000-07:00

It was a dream come true.

wanting to feel happy when I know the heart's broken into two.

Maybe, it's a blessings in a disguise.

Insecure.

I bet, I felt that the moment you are out of my sight.

that night, i laid tears.

BABIES, help me please. I'm confused, lost and helpless.

2008-10-02T07:16:00.000-07:00

Hello earthlings !

I enjoyed my first day of Raya as much as you do.

I had fun raya-ing with fellow family and cousins who visited granny at her place. As for any other years, first day of raya, we stayed at granny's place and the other cousins will come.

AND as usual, I ATE countless plates of LONTONG. I am growing horizontally again.

I am taller than Mummy, as usual.the cousins I love, always. The Salam's family without Uncle Jamal & family who's living in Jakarta.

The second day of Raya is a school day. However, I self declared a holiday. The same goes to Rozzy and the usual W35A cliques.

AND ANOTHER TWINS DAY OUT!

Meet up with Rozzy at Bugis as early as 1030 am. Initially, YANS was supposed to follow us. But being a good RP student she is, she went to school, praying and begging me not to influence her.

First, we had breakfast at Macdonald's. After that, Rozzy and I did SOME shopping and had our hair done. She had purple stripe while I had pink stripes.

After roaming from Haji Lane to beach road and back to Paco, we decided to find a decent place to chill. But we ended up in a SALON.

We were asked to be the models for these two guys who's graduating soon at Toni & Guy.

And it took them freaking 2 hours to get our hair done. My butt cramped already!

So, this is the result, FRENCH ROLLS.

Ok, I'm going to bathe now. Take care loves!

Define me the meaning of "LOVE"; & I'll marry you.

2008-10-02T04:44:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL FELLOW MUSLIMS OUT THERE.

Forgive me my mistakes. :)

Enjoy your hari raya with loved ones.

will update soon.

with love, Albaniaa.

2008-09-30T01:43:00.000-07:00

First of all, I would like to thank all my friends who came down all the way to cheer and give me their moral support yesterday. Thanks my B&B plus Azhar, who cheered for me and stayed on till the results are announced. Thanks to my clique of W35A, who also came down to cheer for your friend over here. Thank you also to my present classmates, Naine, Fany & Sherry. You girls are very sweeeet. Thank you also to Su Li, the Chiron club ppl, the event organiser, Aswandy, my cousin, ELVIN, FIZZ & friends, Sean & those mat rockers, lu rock ah!

Thank you Azza, D’yraa and Raudaah; though you guys were not there, you supported me the whole event.
And oh, not forgetting the Mr & Miss SAS finalist. The bond we shared during the rehearsals can never be forgotten.
Okay, I know I sounded like as if I’ve won an Oscar award. Nevertheless, I just wanna share my gratitude to these people, if you don’t mind.

Anyways, I did not actually attend class that day cos I don’t have anything nice to wear that particular day. So, I went to Bugis with FIZZ to find a dress.

HAFIZ-AH perr.

thank you adelaa. my two sons.my sweet, lovely irritants. I love you to pieces.
Miss Photogenic & Mr Personality.

And no, we're NOT dating.

AfiqBabi. Nice hair eh. CHIA XIN HUI!

I must say, the event was a great and amazing one. It’s an experience for me as I’ve never entered any contest like this. So yeah, all efforts were paid off.

Ian : You know why you won miss photogenic?
Me : Why?
Ian : You see how a CAMWHORE are you!?
Me : ‘________’

To end off the day, I got my heels stucked at the drain grill. '_'

joke of the day.

my gawddddddd.

2008-09-29T04:24:00.000-07:00

RAYA, RAYA, RAYA.
I’m in the RAYA mood. How fast time flies. Last year, I didn’t get to celebrate much due to O’s and the year before, I had my N’s. How great! So this year, I’m going to compensate for what was lost. Lol.
And this year, the theme colour is GOLD! ‘________’

I can see how Mummy is excited for RAYA. (& that includes me too). This year, I’ve been going to gaylang only twice. Compared to my secondary school years, I’ve been going to gaylang almost every weekend during the fasting month. I miss the smell of RAYA clothings and the burning smell of deng deng! Each time I went to gaylang, a deng deng is a MUST!

Been spending most of my time at granny’s place. This year, mummy, kak heri and auntie zed will be cooking all the dishes for RAYA since granny is still sick.

Tmrw is a school day and I’m not in the mood to another mundane presentation.
During semester one, my grades were downright suckier than any of the slackers in W35A. I skipped lessons, halfway through I escaped from presentations and the only thing I did at my laptop was MSN-ING, Friendster-ing, blogging and not forgetting, WEBCAMING. I thought during semester two, I would change for the better. But it became worst I tell you!

Can anyone put me in the mood to strive harder and make things easier for me so that I would not spend another 5 YEARS in rp!?
I told you, things like these always caused me to have panda eyes 0_0

So, after RAYA, I will make myself useful in class this time round.(I know I’ve said it 289732683298th times).
I’m having RAYA and holiday mood now, so no point.

I want to stop falling deeper now. I’ve learnt that things will be much wiser if I held myself back from falling. I choose to be with reality so as to make myself believe that everything happens for a reason.
I don’t know where the mistake lies. I don’t know why HE put this barrier between us.

I cried days when I sensed that the love is no longer there. I tried, not that I don’t, to be happy and acted as if nothing happened.
I choose to believe what I read and what I saw without hearing your side of story.
I was in the midst of battling myself with these.
Deep down inside, never have I thought that it would end this way.

I make that choice because I know it’s better this way.
To know that you no longer feel the same way as I do was very hurting.
For a day, it hurts. But for days, it hurts even more than you could ever imagine.
I blame neither one of us, cos I choose to believe that we are FATED this way.

Ever since the day you stepped foot in my life, not once did I not smile. I was happy when you came. You make me forget my misery, and that guy.
Right now, those feelings starts to fade.
And I thank god for that.

Thanks to _______.

I smiled till today, cos you make me feel happy.

C R U S H

2008-09-25T21:03:00.000-07:00

"what has faded, is already lost"

Before long, I had a trauma. Facing reality was a trauma but facing fate was a norm. However, along the journey I stopped and thought for a while; if it was not meant to be, it’s not meant to be.
Whatever it is, I shall not be bothered cos I’m just painfully tired of having to see all these happening right in front of my two naked eyes in the speed of light.

Whatever shall matter, I’ll let it be for a while. I can never become someone that’s willing to stay all the way when you know you’ve got your heart broken. And I think back again, I think the problem lies with me.
Somehow or rather, you tried to make me feel better. And yes, I am, right now, at this point of time, I am better than what I expected I would be.

Class was a mundane. Two facis has already spoken to me about _______. Seriously, I need to pull up my fcuking socks from now on !

Webcaming with Hafiz in class was hilarious. He tries all sorts of things to make me laugh. He doesn't need to try so hard, I will still laugh.

"MENTEL, mulot maintain!"
and I'm amazed how msn convo's could send a lot of loveeeeeeee.

click to enlarge.
Rozzy baby, just words.
"Thank you & I love you :')"

On a happier note, I’ve got my life back to where it first began. Breakfast-ed with Rozzy b, FIZZ, Hanz & Sean at KFC yesterday. Oh wells, both Rozzy & me were craving for chicken.
And I have a new family. How sweeeeeeeeeet (:

We're still twins !

Horny,horny horhor !

the purposeful candid shots.
YANS, omg, looked what I've found !

Your TWIN!Sean, see the difference in our heights?!
Deprived childhood.

Slept over at Fyqah’s place since it was freaking hell late when I reached there. We had a good pouring out session and she gave me her blessings(yang aku rase terlalu cepat!).

By bit, my heart starts to heal. No more tears on my bed sheets, keyboards or pillows. Maybe the impact I had wasn’t that great. Hell, sometimes I just feel darn horrible. But I put it aside since it’s not supposed to linger on my mind at this point of time. I have to make myself believe that it’s enough for now. But at times, crushes/infatuations happens when you least expected it.

Things like these, happens for goodness sake. Be it when you just got your heart broken or you’ve been single for three solid years. You can’t hide those feelings somehow. But there’s some uncertainty that lies beneath those confidences. You feel rather insecure; knowing that you just got your heart broken and then, someone came along. You just don’t really expect it to come so soon when you’re still in the process of healing yourself.

BELIEVE ME, time will tell.

"I was about to catch my breath when you came.."

that is goodbye

2008-09-24T03:49:00.000-07:00

I will come back, once I'm okay.

Bruised and battered by your words.

2008-09-23T20:44:00.000-07:00

"I will get over you!"

when i'm missing you.

2008-09-23T18:40:00.000-07:00

“You’re that missing piece..”

I can’t take a day without you.
I can’t try to make it on my own again.
I can’t smile; knowing that you are no longer there.
I can’t believe that we are slowly drifting apart.
I can’t make myself believe that you no longer love me.

Yes, for the fact that I can’t do all that above. Right now, I can no longer feel the need to be happy. Nothing feels right. Absolutely nothing. Why do I have to go through this again?

I bleed through those hurts. Yes, you need two hands to clap to make it work.

“I don’t want to see you sad again. I know how much you love him. When you were happily together, you were very very very very happy. You were all smiling. And yes, he makes you happy. “

I thought I could pull through all these.
I thought I could just pack up and leave.
I thought I could be happy like I used to be once I had you.
I thought those promises were not meant to be broken.
And I thought again, I could stop loving you.

I was wrong to even misjudge my own feelings. More than you know, I love you.

And if you wanna be free now, I’ll let you fly. But fly far far away.
I don’t want to see myself in you again.

When one decides to leave, the old one comes back. It wasn't easy to decide. I have to choose between the one I once love and the one I LOVE.

How will I ever fought back if it was not meant to be?

don't say you love me.

2008-09-22T00:49:00.000-07:00

"you need two hands to clap"

I've got to believe that at times, things just won't go my way.

I've got to stop being sensitive and imagine too much. But yknow, I can't help it either.

I'm lost and uncertain about my feelings right now.

It was never easy to give an answer to that million dollar question of yours. If you know what I mean.

I've been trying hard to accept that this is my fate.

It was never easy, never easy love.

Well, who cares about it now. I've got to learn to be apathetic towards all these.

"I will just be honest to you, but don't be sad, I think the feelings faded off"

There's no point crying over it now that I know how you feel.

So yeah, time will tell. Hopefully.

2008-09-20T00:15:00.000-07:00

" I catch a glimpse of heaven, in your eyes.."

Oh wells, we WON again. I had fun with you ladies and to the other two bitches, azza & manda, we won for you eh.

And yes its Friday! Weekend is just around the corner and hari raya is like 10 days time! I can't wait. I missed granny's cooking somehow. :(

Friday night, I had fun. Seriously, you put a smile on my face and make me laugh till I don't know when to stop.

Thank you.

Tag replies :

Rozzy : i am sheeshaing with you now and u are just beside me hhahahahaha.

Albaniaaa : Hah, I know that belo. :)

ur lovely girl, yans: u are sitting next to me with ah rosssssy!!!

Albaniaaa : I know lah nyonya! :D

D'yraa. : tu lar B! dpt jm per u that time. waaah! best dpt hug. hee. Imy tooo

Albaniaaa : Haha, yay! i nak hugggggggg lagik! :*

ur lovely girl, yans: i miss singing all my ahpek songs to u... let's shop for "VITAGE" shirt again. hahahs

Albaniaaa : WHAT THE HELL. haha, i'd rather have you dont sing at all. and yes, VITAGE your head! its VINTAGE lah. grrrrrrr.

Manda: Hahahaha wsws! so sweet uh! hahahaha muack muack hahaha

Albaniaaa: Haha, lol. no laaa. muaaack muack back to you.

HARFANY IS LOVE ♥ : relink me bby. ily.

Albaniaaa : relinked. ilyt.

Manda: I know how you feel baby, you wil be all fine =)

Albaniaaa: oh huns, thank you love. I will be fine, with you around.

Raudaaah: im starting to miss u. more hugs pleaseee (: heh.

Albaniaaa : Oh yes b. I miss you too love. more hugggggs to come!

naine: eh...alamak...i irritating? haha! ya wad...you look at me ONE KIND...anyway, you're HOT and THATS THAT lah sey!

Albaniaaa : awww, takmoh nanges. se-irritating nye kau, aku sayang jugak! it was a first day of school okay. how i know! haha, anyways, stop it eh. Jangan nak buat aku kembang. haha, youre hotter love!

ROZZY: Babe, things will be fine okay time will tell. And Yannee, it's VINTAGE not VITAGE lah ahaha

Albaniaaa : I agree b. LOLS. Yannee need some english lessons from Jackson.

D'yraa.: Baby! i wanna hug you more. I miss having you over at my class after class ends. I miss you alot sey. Must meet up! nd last long k. I LOVEYOUUU

Albaniaaa : Awww baby. I wanna hug u more too :( and i miss having you in the same block and same level some more. and we must meeeet up! ILYT!

ur lovely girl, yans: think too much le, arights, girl

Albaniaaa : I won't baby. thanks girl. :)

Raudaaah: baby baby, are u alright? HUUUGS!

Albaniaaa: awww bby. i am :( huuuugs back love. thank you hun.

azzaizana: b relaxxxxxxxxxx. so sad to see you sad you know;

Albaniaaa : yeaaa b. heee, me too. cant bear to see myself sad too. thanks b, ily.

ur lovely girl, yans: tag u arh, tag u arh, tag u arh. NOW!

Albaniaaa : you are one NYONYA, sporty nyonya! LOL.

ur lovely girl, yans: girl, WE WON!!! wahahhas, pls go train ur butt somemore, may be useful as time!

Albaniaaa : YEAAAH! we WON! haha, your head lah, my butt need no training. HAHA, ok, shut up eh. :D

ROZZY: hhahah yeah i will teach u how one for sure, miss SAS hahahahahahah

Albaniaaa : Hah, miss SAS or whatttt? I'l be the first one they eliminate cos I did a dogwalk instead a catwalk. LOL.

ur lovely girl, yans: thanks for deleating away tt video, or else i got no face men! hahha

Albaniaaa : haha, i will still upload it. you got face meh? LOL.

♥ D'yraa: hey bby! nnti kiter jmper i kasi u hug bnyk2. haha. anw, awk lawaaaaa

Albaniaaa : babyyy! okay, i nak hug banyak2. kite tak lawaaaa lerrr. awak lagik lawaaa. tak paham2 ke! haha, love you.

one&only wenya: BANIAAAAAAAA. heheh

Albaniaaa : Wenyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! misses :(

ROZZY: how was the lock up in the wheelchair toilet? HAHAHA miss sas kepe n the vd was outrageous!!

Albaniaaa : wah piang. stop it eh. you both are so bad laaaa! MISS SAS wak lu. aku buat dogwalk instead of catwalk. HAHA. That video, yes. so hilarious.

ur lovely girl, yans: hahas!! she love the lockup room!YANNEE~,ROSSSY~ hahahahs!! let's do it again. hahs

Albaniaaa : I'M GONNA KILL THE BOTH OF YOU SOOOOOOON EH! WAHLAO. HAH!

shaq: faster go buka with me. lol!

Albaniaaa : and faster date me while stocks last! hah!

putty: relink daku

Albaniaaa : relinked kamu :)

ur lovely girl, yans: to ROSSY-hahh yar la we should record it hahas wasted!

Albaniaaa : Eh hokk-hokk ieeen, shut up eh. I swear I'm gonna rape you.

passerby: i like the 2nd song..(: and ur gorgeous

Albaniaaa : lol, me too :) & thanks for the compliment. and do leave a name okay. cheers :D

Manda : Baby thanks for your post again i love you im doing all fine =)

Albaniaaa : Aww bby, no prob. and i want to see you smile okay. love you tooooo.

i'm losing faith

2008-09-19T22:16:00.000-07:00

" Tonight, my love flew away."

Its been f one week since I last saw my phone. Like Brad Lul said, handphone is just like water. grrrrrrrrrrr. I hope it will be home soon cos I can no longer take it.

On a lighter note, my babygirls and I WON SAS amazing race. We didn't really expect to win but we really won. First day of elimination round, we had a few teams competing with us. We did many stations. From making sandwich while being blindfolded to CPR and then moved on to doing some scrabbling words and yeah, the last station was mix & match. But because we had one mistake, we have to do a forfeit. That is to burst a balloon with our BUTTS.

"Eh bunny, kau gi ah, pantat kau paling besar kan!" Rozzy
( Eh bunny, you go ah, your ass is the biggest!)

"AKU TANAKKKKKKKKK! CB KAU!" Albaniaaa
( I DON'T WANT! CB YOU!)

So Yans & Rozzy pushed me hard to the chair where the balloon is. After 98638767687th times, the balloon still did not burst! So, we asked Rozzy instead and there, the balloon burst.

And so, we break fast at trcc and had fun moments tgt. Oh wells, I love you girls a lot. That day, I love my babieeeees a lot. TRCC.
"Eh, we do emo emo pose" Rozzy
"Ok Ok! I do superman pose!" Yans
tell me how on earth is superman related to emo?! No-motive.
you are my happy pills & I love you girls a lot.
And oh, thanks eh for locking me up in the handicap toilet. It was so nice of you.
One day, I'll take my revenge! grrrrr.

you look funny yans. LOL.

2008-09-19T00:15:00.000-07:00

LIFE WITHOUT A CELL PHONE IS TRULY MADDENING.

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. come home sooon love.

2008-09-18T23:00:00.000-07:00

"I don't want to cabot anymore.
I will pay more attention in class next time.
I will be more active during class discussion.
I will try to understand the problem even tho I jolly well know that I won't be able to.
I will increase my GPA this sem.
And lastly, I will delete my Windows Live Messenger, communicator, skype, friendster."

My resolution for this Ramadhan, heee.
Am I able to? Wahpiang no.

Oh loves, today was another virgin trip I had this year to Haji Lane and had a virgin try of sheeesha-ing. Initially was last Friday with W35A babies & babis. But due to granny being admitted to hospital, I couldn't make it. :(

and anyways, sheesha-ing was great. before that we break fast-ed at ZAM ZAM or in Yan Nee's version, Zoom Zoom. I had a great laugh and enjoying myself with Ian, AfiQ, Yans b & Rozzy b.
Brad Lull joined us after buke. I want your shoe like wthfgsjkieuham.

We decided to go a 5-10 minutes shop at Bugis street again. Oh gawd, I'm so broke right now. Two consecutive days of shopping. Thank god its fasting month if not, I'll be eating peanuts only. :(
I've been searching for a blouse since yesterday but I've yet to find any. It irks me to the deepest shit that I couldn't get what I want. And in the end, I will buy something not anywhere under my TO-BUY-LIST.

*above* awwww, so sweet to carry our heavy bags :)

Brad Lull, AfiQ & Ian, thanks for accompanying and enduring our SHOPPING trip at bugis street eh.

Oh yes, I bumped into Shaq at Bugis. Of all places! Hah. So trained home with Brad Lull and I swear he's the most irritating guy on earth. We talked and crapped of course and not forgetting his sarcasms. You just don't know when to stop eh.
I took Rozzy's words for real. I mean, about marriage. Will my future husband really die if he marries me. So, I asked the expert. Who else that chikopek, Brad Lull.

Me: Eh, you know ah. I've been thinking about it. You know me and we've been friends right. If you are a guy[which he is!], would you want to marry me?
Brad Lull: NO.
Me: look intently in his eyes.

Not because I was TOUCHED by his two word answer but because I'm finding a way to KILL this chikopek. How dare HIM. We will see one day who will become an old HAG. citsss.

And we talked about marriage. So he asked me about husband & wife issue.

Brad Lull : Eh, I don't understand about a husband's money belongs to him and the wife...?

Me: Oh that one. Let me explain to you. It's like this. Ok, I give you example ah.
If you were to be my husband and I'll be your wife. But don't imagine so much ah. No need to think far-far ah! Your money is MY money, and MY money is MY money. You can't touch MY money. Even the religion said so.

Brad Lull : What the hell?!.. Then if like that, IF[he really STRESS that IF] you were to be my wife and I'll be your husband. BUT DON'T IMAGINE SO MUCH AH. NO NEED TO THINK FAR-FAR! If I work, I'm supporting you and you stay at home. Then thats okay what.

Biadap punye CHIKOPEK. Org kene kan dier, dier kenekan org balek. And furthermore, your theory, I don't understand a thing. LOL. Well, I give you face this time since you came all the way to Bugis just to see me shop and went home tgt with me. Awwww. Ok YOU DON'T IMAGINE SO MUCH AH. DON'T THINK FAR-FAR.

I read Manda's tagboard. Things are getting out of hand. Manda baby, I really hope you'l be strong and face all these shits. Believe me dear, difficult times wont last. :) Let them be. Say what they want to say. After all, you know your life better and you know yourself better than they do. I don't want you to be affected by all these. It's not even supposed to even make you tear.
baby, I know what's going on. And I feel you. What's important now is you to move on and be strong. But don't force yourself. The more you force, the more it will refuse to go.
Pray to GOD that everything's gonna be alright. As I mentioned, we are here for you, ALWAYS. and we'll be by your side no matter what happens. :)
Seeing you in this state, makes my heart break. I can't be happy if my babygirl isn't. :(

you know boy, i miss your presence somehow.

2008-09-17T06:31:00.001-07:00

Maybe I'm overreacting.

I don't want you to leave.

be the one to wipe my tears away.

It hurts even more when you hide

2008-09-17T06:31:00.000-07:00

I choose not to believe it, but somehow I have to.

Thanks Manda baby for lending me a listening ear. I will be fine. :) I love you girl. Your strength is what I need now. It hurts more when it heals.

I don't want to see you.

I don't want to bump into you.

I don't want to miss you.

I don't want to talk to you.

I don't want any "hi!", "hello","bye" from you.

I don't want to see you smiling when the fact is you've broke my heart.

I don't want to go to school.

I don't want to go W4.

BUT.

one thing I just can't do no matter HOW hard I tried;

to stop loving you.

tho i craved for your presence somehow, right now, just go away.

:'(

2008-09-16T01:06:00.000-07:00

"Looking at how happy Alb babeh is, we are all happy for her. She is happily in love with WSWS. She isnt that fragile girl that we used to know. Her smiles are back, her laughter is back, her crapiness is back. " quoted from Manda's baby blog.

Sometimes, you just don't know what lies beneath.

2008-09-15T22:38:00.000-07:00

"when lesson gets bored, you read, 'shopaholic ties the knot!' "

So yesterday, cabot again for the 647523483272689th times. And today, cabot again for the ___________ times. Oh gawd, I swear I'm gonna repeat next year[please NOT]. Anyways, yesterday went to catch a movie with four of the malay girls in W45R.

I don't know but I think the girl died in the end I supposed. And the babies so cute. But the bad thing is, Fany & I were waiting for the girl to actually kiss Vin Diesel. He's hawttt like ____.

After movie, I wanted to find for a back pack and saw Dickies bag at 77th Street. At first, I wasn't that interested, but seeing that there's no other bag that caught my eye, I decided to buy that bag.

Fany, Naine, Sherry. Next month hor! :D

this girl, my junior during secondary school days. and we got in the same class now. How small is the world!

This irritating girl, Naine. LOL. And she says I'm arrogant when she first saw me in class. WTH.

She's the first girl I got to know in class and going crazy with her too.

Ok, this is the girl you once promised you will love her forever, remember?

After whatever-we-were doing, Naine and me went back to school. I have to rush to meet Yan Nee baby. I bumped into a lot of people while going back to school. And everyone I met, are the people whom I miss FCUKING much. thank gawd.

Yan Nee baby and I went to shop for bags. And we bought the same bag BUT different colour. Like Yan Nee, I love going shopping with you too b. :) With you singing "AH-PEK" song and I know what's Yan Nee meant by vintage. You won't wanna know.

Head back home and go back to granny's house cos granny wants someone to sleep in her room. She doesn't want it to be empty. So, me, as a filial grand-daughter, decided to sleep in her room. But lucky thing, I have someone to accompany me thru the night. Oh wells.

Ok loves, here's my tag replies;

vik: sial ah, my hobbies are interesting okay

Albaniaaa : AS IF!

iraaa : BBBBB, imisss youuuuu *faiz tkmo jealous ehk*

Albaniaaa: I miss u jugak bb. heeesh. Faiz wont be. :D

shahzan : kakak sdare ko very cute!!!

Albaniaaa: you just see the adik sdare. LOL.

Manda: Thank you for ur post. i love you so much. thank you.

Albaniaaa: No worries. Just so you know, I'm here for you.

ROZZY: Awww that is so sweet my dear. I miss you fcuking much toooo. So used toseeing you everyday man, class aint the same without you.

Albaniaaa : hee. I miss you fcuking hell much too. and i feel fcuktard when youre not in class with me. Class aint the same without you too. :(

fyqahh :)) : berak berak sak aku makan nasi ayam penyet pat hospital semlm. grrrrr. you get well soon too lovee.

Albaniaaa : hah, aku pun seh. aku berak2 jugak kat hospital. orang lain tengok nyai, aku mengadap jamban every hour. U too love. get well soon. :0

wenya: FIANLLY I SAW MY FACE AGAIN. hahah i miss and love youuu(:

Albaniaaa : Awwwww baby. I miss & love you tooo my webcam partner. :(

iraaa: bby, u okay? anything i'll be here okay. i love you prettyhead!

Albaniaaa : aww baby. im okay. better :D. heeesh, thanks love. i love you too lawaaaaaaaa, so much. :D

Fizz : wei nvr do my quiz its ok.. :(

Albaniaaa: ooowwww. haaas, ok, for you, I DO IT AGAIN. owe me one GP. :D

ur lover girl,yans: are u ok, girl. don scare me. u know i love u soooooo

Albaniaaa : yeaaa baby. im okay girl. i've filled you up already yesterdayy! and i felt so light now. cos i've shared everything with you and I'll consider what you said to me. :D ily girl.

fred: hye new friend!

Albaniaaa: Hello new friend. I'll link you.

Manda: Babeh, are yo ok? I will be there like how you were there for me =) Muacks Albaniaaa: I am okay sweetheart. I'll be fine. Dont worry babyyyy. MUACCCCKS.

azzaizana: did ur surveyyyyy liao, at my blog! i miss u hun :(

Albaniaaa: thanks b. thats sweet. I miss you too b. :(

fred: okay i'll put hearts for u okay. just wanted ur attention. hahaha ; and u edited my picture by putting the cheesekebabats. how sweet. :)

Albaniaaa : heeeees. ATTENTION? whatever for? haaa. yeaaah, nice ah that cheeeeesekebabats ah. lol. i know i am. LOL.

Fadhilah : i pray that your nyayi get well soon.

Albaniaaa : aww, thanks sis. :)

ur lovely girl, yans: hohohoho, merry chrismas!!

Albaniaaa: EH NYONYA! u SIAO OR WHAT? Fasting month not yet finish, want christmas!

ROZZY: But that someone is close to impossible to find. Since u've found yours, congrats. I hvent found mine HAHAHA

Albaniaaa : Maybe I've found my happiness but like I said, god decides everything. Shit happens baby. You wont know. Believe me, one day, you'l find true happiness. Cos god is fair love.

Raudaaah: i love you bby! i want somemore hugs :D

Albaniaaa : Aww baby. I want more hugs and flying muacks-muacks from you! heeee. ily.

Manda: Butt, i also haven found my happiness =(

Albaniaaa : Just like what I told Rozzy, one day you'l find true happiness. Even I can't say I've found my true happiness. Cos, shit happens and god decides everything love. You wont know honey. Its hard, I know. But I want you to be strong. You know I love you and even friends and family can make you happy, without you realizing it baby. Honey, be strong. I love you.

ur lovely girl, yans: all of us still can't find our happiness!! but as long as u happy, we happy!!

Albaniaaa : Yeah baby. True. get what I mean. Even friends can make you happy dear. Just like what you did to me. heeeees.

And oh, remembering sunday is sweeeeeeeeet, thank yous CHEEEEEESEKEBABATS.

2008-09-15T10:04:00.000-07:00

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her..."

As sweet as I am to you, as sweet as you are to me.

2008-09-15T09:50:00.000-07:00

WHATEVER.

2008-09-14T21:00:00.000-07:00

FRED CHEESEKEBABATS.

Hello new friend!

This is my new friend I just met at MSN. Thanks to that irritating Farhan anws. :)

And this guy, live far from me which is a good thing. '_______'

Fred is nice, super nice. [yes, you are!]. Thank you for entertaining me Fred.

I owe you one.

Love, Albaniaaa CHEESEKEBABATS! muahaha.

2008-09-14T19:47:00.000-07:00

I want no end.

Turn to your left and you'll see my heart shattering into pieces.

2008-09-14T07:36:00.000-07:00

THANKS eh FARHAN, thanks for making me happy. :D

Thanks to the new friends I've made.

Love, Albaniaaa.

2008-09-14T07:22:00.000-07:00

*above* picture taken on Friday.

When I see you lying on that bed, waiting for answers from the doctors, my heart sank.
When I see you cry, seeing yourself in this state, my heart sank even deeper.
I may not be the best you ever had, but I certainly will pray for your recovery tho we both know its impossible. But I do believe in miracle. Miracles are bound to happen and I know it will.
I don't want you to leave neither do I want to see you suffer. I want you to know how much I really love you even tho at times I may neglect you.

As a human, I don't have the ability or power to stop whatever god wants to do. I don't want you to feel that this is the end. Its not. You still have all of us, praying silently for you whenever those eyes met.

Although you may appear to be normal, but I know you're suffering inside. You acted as tho nothing has happened. But deep down in your heart, only god knows.

Today, I laid tears for you. I can't bear to see you suffer like this not knowing what's going on. If I could ask god for something, I would want him to trade my place with you. Cos I'd rather suffer than to see you suffer.

Thursday's outing was wonderful & lovely. I think, I've found happiness. :)

2008-09-12T08:27:00.000-07:00

"If you love me only in my dreams, let me be asleep forever."

I am having love sick now. Due to the fact that I can't really breathe and having coughs since we went out to watch our first movie tgt.

Whatever.

I don't wanna care. I don't wanna lose in the end fighting the battle. I've kept things from you, which maybe, I'm not supposed to. But you know, I'm not that kind of person who will open up and tell you everything I feel.

The fact is, I don't wanna lose my happiness that I just got.

I hate the fact that I can't make you happy but on the other hand, you are trying so hard.

I've told you time and again, I'm not the best.

I don't know why suddenly I became like this. Maybe, its too much for me to take.

Let fate decides. I always believe in fate.

I don't want you to know how bad I feel at this point of time cos I don't want to ruin anything right now.

If you know how bad I feel, I'm sure things will be different from what it is right now.

To see you happy, I won't hesitate to leave.

:'(

2008-09-11T00:59:00.000-07:00

I miss my Enterprise Faci for semester 1. I miss how we used to call her this name that was actually quite "hurting". LOL. But as times passes by, we somehow get along with her.

She cares for each and everyone of us, alot. Seriously. She wants us to be happy and she's willing to use her extra time just to give us the time to pour every misery out.

I miss webcam-ing in class with Wen Ya especially. Though we love to tease each other and throw sarcasms but still, I love you.

Gawd. I miss this twin-lesbo-girlfriend-bitch-horny-pretty-exclassmate of mine.

I miss seeing her everyday in class and having to laugh at people while they were presenting.

How I missed going to breaks with her and miss doing ppt tgt.

Hell, I'm crying.

I miss this guy. Throughout semester 1, he's always there for me despite the age difference between us. He makes me happy every day in class. He will never whines whenever I ask him for help. He helps me move on and most importantly, he gave me the confidence to live.

I miss my sons. Even though they may be such a pain in the ass. But still, I miss them hell loads.

I miss the outing to Fish&Co.

I MISS ADELA,"SOBSSOBS" & I miss teasing Zhi Shan.

yourmotherdonnoe.

& last but not least, I miss my W35A babies.

& yes, the bond we shared, is very SPECIAL.

p/s: I promise to invite you to my wedding. haaaa. LOVE!

2008-09-11T00:21:00.001-07:00

RED LIGHT ALERT.

Mood swing. PMS. Temper. Tantrum.

try be a woman.

I told you, I'm not the best [but I'm not the worst either eh!]. I've reminded you. & yes, truth is, I'm not okay.

I would be so glad if you don't try so hard.

"If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go."

2008-09-10T07:39:00.000-07:00

Manda baby, I know how things turns out to be hell for you. When you told me, I wanted so much to help and make you smile like last time. Baby, believe me when I said, "difficult times won't last". God is fair.I know god is. As you know, I've been in your position before. Been through it and taste what it's like. It was NEVER easy. But nobody said right that it will hurt so bad? But it hurts real bad. Real bad till I don't know what I should do next. I was in the verge of giving up. I didn't want to live this life, facing tears every day.

All of you were there for me, every single one of you. I told myself every day, these have to stop because there's no point dwelling about the past.
I was at my losing end till one day, someone came along. I didn't ask god for it. But I thank god for giving me more than I ask for.

Baby, I don't want to see tears rolling down your cheek. I don't want to see you sad. Seeing you sad, makes us all sad. Because we feel you and we want you to know that we love you very much.
I know it's hard. But Manda, this is life. No matter what, we've got to face it.

Just so you know,I'm always here for you even if you don't need me to. I love you and I want you to know that WE ALL LOVE YOU.

Smile baby, try okay? I love you baby, always.:')

& to my one & only B&B.

I love you all fcuking much. All those horny moments, I won't forget. Especially those "***" videos we took tgt.
Thank you babies[for the BITCHES] & BABIS[for the BASTARDS]. Anyways, each and everyone of you are loved by me. I will always be there for you and always love you guys alot.
Sentosa outing soooon loves!

:')

2008-09-09T18:44:00.000-07:00

1. The person who tag you is?
~ Shaq!

2. Your relationship with him/her is?
~ My friend,babe, schoolmate. :)

3. Your five impressions of him/her?
~ Sweet, fun, friendly, lovely and nice.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
~ Haha, she makes me cry because of her note to "someone".

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
~ "Be strong babe!" Sweeet right?

6.If he/she become your lover, you will?
~ SIAO. I'm not a lesbo eh.

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?
~ Haha, I don't know her that well so I can't say anything now.

8.If he/she become your enemy, you will?
~ NO.

9.If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?
~ Because I've hurt Hazwan before? LOL. Hazwan is so yesterday!

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is.
~ I want to break fast with her!

11. Your overall impression of him/her is.
~ Sweet & nice.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
~ Sensitive and weak :(

13. The characters you love of yourself are.
~ Crazy, SEXBOMBER[LOL], bubbly & horny maybe?

14.On the contrary, the characteristics you hate most about yourself are?
~ Sensitive and weak!

15. The most ideal person you want to be is.
~ My mummy.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them.
~ I want to say many-many thanks for always being there for me even if I'm at my worst condition. I will always cherish those memories we had and I love all of you a lot! *HUGGGGGGGGGS*

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you pass to people that have blog only.
~ 1. Fyqah
2. Rozzy
3. Yan Nee
4. Manda
5. Azza
6. D'yraa
7. Faiz
8. Zylaa
9. Diyanah
10.Vik

18.Who is no.6 having relationship with?
~ D'yraa. She's single, I think? She's beautiful.

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
~ Diyanah; shemale? Haha, FEMALE.

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
~ Faiz & Vik ; VERY GOOOD. Hah, I'm sure they will enjoy each other's company.

21. What is no.2 studying about?
~ Rozzy; She's taking diploma in Pharmaaa... Science.

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
~ Yan Nee ; Last night.

23. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
~ Zylaa ; ST12. kan?

24. Does no.1 have any siblings?
- Fyqahh ; yes.

25. Will you woo no.3?
~ Yan Nee ; Haha, I will.

26. How about no.7?
~ Faiz ; Why must I woo him? :D

27. Is no.4 single?
~ Manda ; YES! heh.

28. What is the surname of no.5?
~ Azza ; Brody?

29.What’s the hobby of no.10?
~ Vik ; You won't wanna know.

2008-09-09T07:00:00.000-07:00

Right now, I'm at TTS hospital. While doing this freaking RJ, I chat with Farhan. He asked me to listen to a very sad song. It was indeed a very very sad song. We talked about how we both missed W35A, how we used to joked and shared our problems with each other. One thing he told me that makes me cry [in front of public somemore eh. Heh.]

"Haiz, its too late now. W35A make a BIG MISTAKE!" Farhan
"Why?!" Albaniaa
"Everyone was so close with each other. Look what happen now. :(" Farhan

It's true. Its seriously true. I wouldn't want to trade W35A'08 for the world. Each and everyone of you means something to me.

Oh gawd Farhan. I'm crying right now. Why is today a tears day for me? :'(

Just now, was walking to Causeway point, Yan Nee baby told me something that almost makes me wanna cry.

" Wah now, I see my best friends all happy-happy already. I somehow feel that I also want to be happy just like all of you. But ah, I don't care much cos seeing you happy, I'm happy too." Yan Nee

":')" Albaniaa

You see how sweet my babies are. For months, I lived in agony. They are the ones who stood by me, love me, sayang me, pamper me when no one else did. When someone I needed the most gone missing, they were the ones who makes my life complete. And even at my worst condition, they were the ones who helped me pull through this.

For all the happy times we shared and sadness we told, I can never thank you all enough. I would never meet my happiness if it weren't for you babies. Cos of you, I have the strength to face life and continue living.

From the bottom of my heart, I love each and everyone of you, very much. Thank you for being there for me & I don't want us to part.

:)

I'm rich cos I have each and every one of your love.

2008-09-09T03:37:00.000-07:00

"I wish I was not born even.."

For all the things you said to me, for all the damage you've done to my heart, you know it better than I do.
I'm stuck where I don't know where should I go next. I want you to know exactly how I feel right now. The feeling is horrible.
I don't want you to see me. I don't want you to even breathe me. I don't want every single bit of your heart to me.

I'm feeling horrible. Darn horrible. I don't know which path to choose. Many things has been happening without my consent.

I AM IMPERFECT, I know. But I do know that I have a heart to feel.

Oh gawd, dont take my happiness away.

I'm left unspoken.
Will you be there for me?

2008-09-07T20:36:00.000-07:00

“I do believe now, miracle happens.”

As planned, meet up with Fyqah cinta yesterday to celebrate my belated birthday and her birthday in advance. Meet up at Bugis and headed to find some tops actually. But none caught my eye. I bought a dress to wear for this Thursday. *eyebrows high2*.

At Bugis Junction. I know, everyone was looking at us when we were snapping this photo.

Headed back to granny’s house for break fast since Uncle Zizi and Aunt Zed will be there too. But before that, we camwhored under granny’s block. So lame. Mummy surprised us with a cake. How sweeeeet. And Fyqah loves the cake, ME TOOOOO!

But, before we went up, we camwhored like mad. thanks to my cellphone for being sweet. [$%#$%@#%^$^%$##@#%$^*(&*^&]

Oh, credits to Fyqah Cinta.

Presenting my beloved one & only kecohrable, siaotingtong, loud, beautiful and bigass cousin!

My self-timer sucks bigbig balls ah! grrrrrrrrrrrr.
& this is after 876175356353435th times.

awww, noii sayang fyqah.

the intention is to jump high2. But then, I think our asses and breasts were too heavy that moment!

"we take one photo with shades and the other one without shades ah!"Fyqah.
"ah kay kay!"*semangat tone* Albaniaa

When I started knowing her, I started loving her too. She's my pillar of strength, confidant, babygirl, cousin and CINTA. I love you baby. And, thank you for the lovely gift. I so love it!

Dah macam S.Jibeng.

"I NAK HUGGGGGGGGGG!" Albaniaaa

And it doesnt work taking at this angle.

These two kids so cute playing together. Just like sisters. I think they're gonna be FYQAH&NOI future. Ok, rosak!

CANDID AUNTIE ZED.

How sweeeeet my uncle and auntie. Will my marriage be as strong as this in years to come?
heesh, miang.

My babylove Nazihah.

Dasar CAMWHORE.

Cut the cake September babies.

Our eyes are not focusing on Mummy's camera but instead on Uncle zizi's camera.

So my day, my birthday though it's belated, is filled with many happiness, surprises, excitement and of course, love.
I thank GOD for everything. I'm happy that at least now, I'm happier than ever. Thank you to you, WSL.

And so, happppppppppy belated to ALBANIAAA and advance to FYQAH CINTA.

Ok, I better pay attention to my friend's presentation. :S

2008-09-06T21:16:00.001-07:00

My phone is a kanina cb phone. It has been like a bitch since a month ago and it has been auto deleting people’s number & auto rejecting calls.

CAN YOU PLEASE LET ME TALK TO WSL just for a WHILEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE?!

I have knocked that bloody phone on the wall 97867686575th times, dropped it on the concrete ground and threw it down so that it will come to its senses. But still, I can see NO changes.

If you were to be alive, I think you would be dead by now.

Oh dear phone, please stop acting like a bitch and listen to your pathetic owner here. PLEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE for GOD’S SAKEEEE!

2008-09-06T02:45:00.001-07:00

Friday : Breakfast with girlfriends and a boy & mummylove at Pizza Hut. I had a great time with these siaokai people. Especially when Diyanah is around. She was disturbing Mummylove NON-STOP. Hah. And this mulot BECOK girl even nearly blurt out that I went out with Wahsehlove that day. Grrr.

After eating our dinner at Pizza Hut.

Mummylove da gemokkkkkkkkkk! :D

sheeesh, i love u gfs. :D

We had ice cream too at Anderson. I tell you, Diyanah has the potential of selling ice cream with the Auntie.

Diyanah and her non-stopping story!

That Gelang Patah boy. He's my father to be. And Mummy seemed to have a GREAT conversation with him when we're having ice cream. How sweeeeeeeeeet. (NOTTTT!)

"Tak abes-abes interview org?" Mummylove
"Alah interview dek ni pun untuk korang!" Diyanah

DIYANAH, ketawe maintain eh.

Thanks eh Fylzah. My face looks like you ah. Haram betol.

Diyanah, youre by far the irritating, noisy, hilarious and mulot BECOK girlfriend I ever had.

Makan satu meja nampak?

The US. Herini, nice sandal eh? LOL.

This guy above is Mummylove soon to be husband. (that's what that Diyanah said).

For my entire life, Mummylove has never like any boy/man/bastard/jerk to ask for my number but today was DIFFERENT. You know why? She asked me/us to ask this guy for his number so that we could meet up next TIME! And when he went home tgt with Kak Nah, Herini & Su, Mummy even told them NOT to bully him! You tell me what on Earth is going on with my MOTHER!

That Gelang patah boy (whose name is Hamizan) text me.

Me : Ma, he said thank you for treating him.
Mummylove : Alahhhh, say to him no worries want! Ask him whether the girls bullied him? Is he still in one piece?
Soon after.
Mummylove: You got reply him not? Kesian dier kau tak reply message dier. Gi lah reply.
(Pity him you never reply his message. Go and reply.)
Me : For what? Later ah.
Mummylove: Go lah, org nak buat kawan! Tak baik tolak.
(Go lah. People want to make friends. Its bad to refuse.)
Me : _______________________!

She complained I often text messaged late at night, now when it's already 12 plus, she ask me to reply his message.

I think I'm dying soon. It's true what Kartika said, I'm seeing the gate of hell. 0_0

2008-09-05T02:29:00.000-07:00

First of all, I would like to say many-many thanks to Zul BFF, Vik, Vicky,Wahsehlove (Faiz), Saiful, Adelaaa baby, Saiful, Khai, Rozzy baby, Suckdick(syiddiq), Lukman, Hafiz(Apit), Yan Nee baby, Surya(tetek), Fyqah Cinta, Ian(Bangla), Manda baby, Awallul(Brad Lull), Nizam(ADIK) LOL, Herini gf, Boy Lizhan, Amberlynn, Kak Nana, Kak Sylah, Rizuan Pendek, Keith, Afiq(the mandol husband),Basirah(hotterthanlove),Awin Mawet, Harfany Baby, Kak Esqar Norbit, Fizz(GPB), Wen Ya baby, Ailin kea, Syafie(Handicap partner), Hanz (SON),D'yraa JAMBUHEAD, Suaidah Ahmad, Diyanah(mulutbesi), Helmi, Rayyan Chucky, Su Li baby, Menda baby, Zylaa Cinta, Kakak Haidah, Anaa, Jeng, Auni baby, Mira Edora baby, Ikahoney, Nottinana, Tipah, Jingwen, Shafiq, Nisa(Cadbury), Tien Hock, Shaqif, Wei Kang, Laydee, Shafu, Yuyun, Yusri, Leen, Alex, Nisa(RP), Yeul and Fadhsisterlove, Shahzan.
Thank you all for the birthday wishes aye. lovelove.

And lastly, IPIN. Thanks for the birthday wish. Not everything you think/say/assume is always right and true. You are not always in the right. Unless you see it with your own eyes, then you can make that statement of yours.Anywhats, take care of yourself and thank you for everything in the past.:)

Well, this year. I TURNED EIGHTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN. God, I'm legal at last. After years of waiting.
This year, I celebrated my birthday with B&B, trekkers and wahseh. Have I ever told you how sweeeeeeet my W35A is? Yes, they are vvvv sweeet. To me, yes they are. Cos on my birthday, they came all the way to find me in my new class just to give me a huge hug. GOD, I miss you all real bad. SEEEEEEEEESHA soon darlin.
SYAFIE HUGGED ME and it was the first time I hugged him. And I started to realised, I miss him real bad. Even tho he, Farhan, Rozzy, Shaqif and Vic is such a PAININTHEASS, I still love them. They are my happy pills when I'm in W35A. I miss all of them. Ok, before I start tearing again.

Fizz that Goreng Pisang boy gave me TOBLERONE. How sweeeeeeeeeeet. Early in the morning make me droool and touched. :D Thanks small boy.
And oh, AZZAIZANA came all the way after class just to give me a HUGE HUG. Aww, how sweet that girl to give me a note. I love you b!

As I said, I celebrated my BIG day(besides my wedding day) with my loved ones.But before that, had "IMPORTANT" meeting with the trekkers. I shall post the video soon. TrekEarth Oscar Award. Hosted by two pepekmiangs, Cloud and Khai.
And hell, we enjoyed it anyway. It was good and entertaining. Plus, the yellow ribbon project was hilarious. :D More of this.

Then the B&B proceed to Causeway point to break fast. How sweeeet Ian the Bangla to fast just to break fast with us that day. Oh bangla, you are so sweeeeet.
Bought KFC and ate at Azza's cave. It was really a cave eh Manda baby. LOL.

AND sweeeeeeeeet or what, they surprised me with a birthday cake. Care bear some more. I know ah, I FAT like CARE BEAR.

But anyways, B&B and wahsehlove, thanks for the wonderful and amazing time I spent with all of you on my special day. Thanks for all your the sweet posts. I love you all from the bottom of my heart to the bottom of my feeeeet. And I'm glad that at least now, I'm much happier than before. Thank you loves.

The new gila-gila classmate of mine. Harfany and she so FARNYYYYYY whor.
HARFANY IS LOVE BY JESSICA ALBANIAAA TOOO. <3

Toblerone from FIZZ. I think he changed business. From selling Goreng Pisang to now,chocolates.

Feeling-feeling and never paid attention to what wahsehlove is talking. :D

"Alamak, can see longkang. So deep some more"Albaniaa
"0_0" wahsehlove.

SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET EIGHTEEEEEEEN. when's yours? Wait nong nong okay.

FARNY loves to tease SEPET. And I love to see SEPET being teased.

I LOVE AZZZZZZZZZZA BABY. She gave me a note so sweeeeeet.

The B&B foreverlove. While waiting for the rest.

Manda and Rozzy baby. The main culprit for the surprise. Even so, I LIKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
This two cheeky bitches some more can lie, "oh, we're picking Khai to come here!"
Like as if that pepekmiang don't know where our usual spot is.

My BITCHES IS LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Thank you babies for the surprise and the day. I love you bitches a lot, lot, lot, lot. But cannot be more than ________.

My bastards. They are the bastards of all bastards. And hell, AFIQ has become just like one of them. From a quiet-quiet reserved BOY to a horny-babi.

B&B, I LOVE YOU ALLL SO MUCH!

My bitches is love forever.

AH PULL MY DRESS SOME MORE AH!
NO MANNERS. HAHA.

I can't live without you bitches plus azzaizana.

Yan Nee scolding wahsehlove because he don't want to woooo me. HAHA. Yan Nee so funny!

My lovely twin sister. She's the reason for my happiness now. I sayang you rozzy and forever I'll be. :D

heeeeeeeesh. MIANG!

HAPPY LEGALLY EIGHTEEN ALBANIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

I LOVE YOU BABY!

Trying to kisssssss.

Thank you b for the bday kiss on the lips.

Soon after, Khai, Cloud, Abd, Jerral, Dian and Kim came. WARNING! Better stay away from this two pepekmiangs, KHAI & CLOUD. Wahpiang. Still can throw the cake at me eh Khai. But its okay, I had my revenge. HAHA. Serve you right! But still, I love my pepekmiangs so much.

Thanks eh Khai.

My husband hugged me! Like oh gawd. Yes, he's my husband but sadly, he's MANDOL. Go figure if you don't know what is mandol.
Anywhats, I love you AfiqBabi. :D

They lightened up my sorrow and make my days brighter. Thank you for the day. The happiest birthday.

I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU GUYS.

2008-09-03T20:16:00.000-07:00

Holidays are over and new semester starts. I'm so happy to meet my friends again and hell, I miss W35A like mad fcuk. Ramadhan is here. So far, so good.

I spent my holidays rotting at home, going for gatherings, shopping, spending time with Ihah and go OUT with friends.

First day of Ramadhan: Break fast at Granny's house.

She's as cute as ever. Just like the Kakak sdare hor!

Family meeting!

Second day of Ramadhan : Break fast with W35A usual clan at Fish&co. (Cb, never gonna eat there again!)

With Kok Meng glove.Fyi, Kok Meng's a goth so he's costumes are all unique with chains all around. Cool or whatttt?! (I'm saying for the sake of saying!)

VICKNESH, that boy my mother like. I think my Mom have fetish for Indian guys.

Kok Meng KOK the GOTHIC and Hanz the filial son.

geeeee. new semester, new class. I miss my W35A babies. LOVE and miss you all.
And W45R, HELLO ALL!

2008-08-31T23:18:00.000-07:00

I am bored currently.
Is there any kind soul who can entertain me?

And to all Muslims out there, Happy ramadhan. :)